I just knew today would be a good one. I had good vibes for this day for a week or two. We spontaneously stopped in the casino to try out their buffet (at least I knew I could be guaranteed no screaming kids in there!). Then we gambled and he won about $40 and me $30. I psyched out winning machines and then sensed it when I could win no more. I always sense it and know when I’m gonna win/lose. For $38 (there’s no tax on the reservation) I got a cute little 14” brown-haired, brown-eyed ballerina in a blue satin dress with white stiff netting. Her hair is to her waist and is a cross between wavy and curly. She came with no stand and no name so I named her Linda. She’s very similar to my Christina doll, but rather than having lace-up toe slippers, she’s barefoot. I plan to polish her toenails. As my shit doll luck would have it, I have to glue on a couple of flowers that fell off the ribbons that go around her ankles, as well as her fairy wings. She has a halo of blue flowers around the crown of her head.

For $14 I got an Arizona T-shirt with cactuses with a shiny gold border on a deep magenta background.

At the buffet, they had some Chinese food. As always, I grabbed a fortune cookie, and with it came a rather ominous message that says: Children’s laughter, so beautiful to hear, soon will be a chance to have them very near.

No thanks! Their laughter is not so beautiful to hear and I don’t want a chance to have them very near. I’d had them very near for nearly a decade now, which is more than enough, thank you. I’m not worried, though. I know God has other plans for me in life and that kid(s) is not in my destiny. I may’ve been wrong about marriage, quitting smoking, etc., but I know I’m not wrong about this, even though Tom feels it’s inevitable just like he did with the smoking.

Last Sunday, after unpacking several boxes, we went and stayed at the Fairfield (I did our laundry, too). Teresa wasn’t working, but Kim, another one we’ve gotten to know (we know the whole staff), was kind enough not to put anyone near us. I explained what happened the last time, and asked that she please be selective about who she puts near us if she could help it. We ended up being on the 3rd floor for the first time in this place, right in the very room those wild animals were in. It had a really cool 20’ high ceiling which made sounds echo. No wonder they were so damn loud. Anyway, it turned out to be their best room yet. I never heard one sound all night.

We’re at the Southgate now.