Someone grabbed a copy of Heart of the Forest yesterday! I’m guessing it was a total stranger because I figure anyone on Facebook or PB would have gotten whatever they want by now. That’s great, if that’s the case because that shows I can be found. I wonder how they stumbled upon me, though? I’m guessing it’s a category thing that works like tags…suspense, thriller, mystery.

Less than two days until I’m at full-blown menopause! Very exciting and very relieved to have survived perimenopause, the worst thing I ever experienced in my entire life on top of medication issues. A chilling reality hit me and that’s that it takes a very sick, evil and twisted God, if there is one at all, to design a woman’s body to basically torture the shit out of her. Really who/what the hell in its right mind designs a woman’s body to turn on her like that? It was truly torturous!

Still worried about the anxiety returning, though, even if it never gets nearly as bad as it was before. I never go beyond 6 to 8 weeks of taking 75s every day without getting some anxiety and it’s already been about 4. Been taking it every day since the lab.

Today was a productive day although a tired one. I’m not sure why I’m so tired today since I slept great. Maybe some of the times I was tired on 50s wasn’t due to my thyroid as much as I thought. I guess we really do get tired more often with age. Tom’s tired today too. It’s okay to enjoy a lazy day every now and then, though. Everything that needs to be done has been done, it’s the weekend, and we’re entitled to relax at times.

After going to Sam’s, I went out walking for a half-hour or so, took care of the animals, and then we ordered an ant farm, a tube of 30 ants, and moisturizer made for wet skin that I want to try. Lotioning up with wet skin works way better than applying lotion to dry skin. You get a much more even coverage that way.

Looking forward to our LED-lighted ant farm! The farm will be here in a few days, but the ants won’t come marching in till the 18th or later. They only live for around 3 months, so we’ll have to get refill tubes of them when we want more. It’s illegal to buy queens because they’re considered an invasive species.

Tammy’s lack of an update is both frustrating and strange. I don’t know why she went silent on me. I don’t even know if she’s home yet. Did they find the source of her infection? Have they gotten her kidneys under control? I just don’t know anything, but I don’t want to make her talk about anything she may not want to talk about.