Every time I think my lip is healing, it bugs me again. Cancer may seem like quite a stretch but whatever it is is definitely more than just a simple zit, blister, sore, or cut.

Yesterday was another shitty day. Six hours after taking my medication I thought I was finally going to have a good day when my heart started racing. I had some anxiety but a lot more racing where my heart was between 95 and 100. Sometimes it was a little higher. It wasn’t till the end of my day before it slipped back down to a comfortable low 80s.

Today will determine whether or not I stop the 88s. It could be one big old coincidence just like with the medication brand thing but the timing is just that…very coincidental. 10 days after the dose increase and I’m having anxiety every single day. Well, I’ll find out if it’s connected to the medication if I have to back down to 75s only. If it is connected, the anxiety should dissipate.

As for the raciness, it wasn’t just that my heart was going fast but hard as well. Like that booming heart thing that can come with this medication. Right now I’m aware of it but it’s not something really noticeable like yesterday. Yesterday I swear I could tell I have high blood pressure because I could hear the forcefulness of the systolic as opposed to the diastolic.

For the last couple of hours, I’ve heard barking way off in the distance somewhere outside of the park. It’s nowhere near remotely loud enough to be bothersome but I sure feel bad for the neighbors! Makes me wonder if it’s someone from the West.

Yesterday morning we went to Publix where I got some fresh fruit and veggies and a few other things, including some brookies for us to share. The combination brownie/cookie looked so good but they’re really not that great.

Early in the morning, we’re going to bomb the place. This place has been surprisingly good with a lack of bugs and I want to keep it that way. The lizards and frogs do a good job of taking care of them for the most part.

Our first stop will be at Denny’s since we have to be out for a couple of hours. I can just imagine the blasting music that awaits us there, too. Why is it that so many businesses and restaurants feel it’s their job to entertain us instead of just serving us what we came there for?

Then it will be off to Sam’s Club. I don’t remember that place blasting music so much as forklifts beeping obnoxiously, but either way, I look forward to getting out, eating, shopping, etc.