Every now and then I go back to old entries to add in little things I forgot along the way. I was going to do that with yesterday's entry, but now I can't remember what it was I was going to add.

Today is a little better than yesterday, so far. I’m still tired, but not quite as tired. I got a sleep score of 83, and while that’s better than 79, 85 and up is best for me. I still woke up several times. The best thing is that my heart isn’t racing and beating so hard as it was yesterday. Hate that feeling!

It still frustrates me to know that I’ve been suffering for the better part of a decade now, and have twice as long to continue to do so if things don’t magically get better somehow. It seems more often than not there’s something… Fatigue, anxiety, lightheadedness, racing heart, depression…something. We all get old at different ages. I got old at 48, and I probably have 20 more years to live. That will make 30 years of being old. ☹

I envy those who are older than me that seem to be able to be on the go and do things every single day. Of course, they're always on days. I just wish I could be normal! It seems that all my life I've had something fluky about me.

Last night's HRV was 16. I'll definitely address this with a cardiologist if I can ever get my damn gallbladder out of the way. That's gonna be another month or two.

I wish we had a smart lanai. I went out there to get the last of the sunshine, trying to help myself perk up. Some of the sun filtered through the plastic wrap and blinds, but it would be nice if we could tell Alexa to open everything but the screens when we were out there, and then close them when we wanted them closed.