Looking forward to being able to take the weekend off from all the health work. I had to return a call yesterday that I missed for billing. The out-of-pocket part of it is now paid for.

There was yet another voice message I missed from the same woman who called before, saying she got a referral from the same nurse about my gallbastard. Why would she be calling when I already made the appointment for both the scope and the surgeon? I’ll find out on Monday. For the next couple of days, I’m going to enjoy a break from the health work.

Lastly, I dealt with Galileo’s automated refill message and let them know I have plenty of pills for the next few weeks due to the dose change. They said that was fine, and to just let them know when I get low. I also have to get a new inhaler soon, even though I only need it a few times a year.

When I first woke up, I thought OMG, I feel worse than yesterday and I’m never gonna be able to stay awake all day! Now, I think I might be a little better. Doesn’t mean I’m bursting with energy, but I have enough for now.

One melatonin wasn’t enough to knock me out, so I took Benadryl. Instead of getting barely an hour of deep sleep, I got nearly two hours, and it started measuring my HRV again. It was 20. I slept for 7 hours. I crashed at 5:30 and woke up for a second at 8:40. At 9:20, I got up to pee and couldn’t fall back to sleep so I took another Benadryl. I remember waking up two or three more times before I woke up 5 minutes before the alarm. One of the times I was definitely making these weird sounds as I was breathing. I heard myself do it twice. I think it was coming from my nose, though, and not my throat.

Really hope we don’t have a lot of walking to do through parking lots and buildings to get to the appointment! I also hope they wheel me out of there. Jessie said that you’re really out of it when you first come to, then wide awake an hour later. She said I might feel loopy for the day.

Anyway, if I can’t fall asleep after the standard 16 hours - and I have a feeling I won’t be able to - I’m going to take a whole Hydroxyzine pill and see how hungover I end up feeling when I get up tomorrow.

Later…

Not even 4 hours into my day, and I can feel the fatigue picking up. ☹ But why? I told myself not to worry about my damn schedule like Tom always suggests. It definitely does seem to have become more noticeable around the time the gallbladder started getting me in 2017. But I still don’t think it’s going to be that simple for me. If it isn’t me worrying too much, then it’s probably chronic fatigue. It could be connected to menopause or my thyroid. But why this late in the game if it’s menopause? And why wasn’t I practically comatose when I was first diagnosed with a 32 TSH? So I’m thinking it’s either the effects of trauma/worrying as he thinks or chronic fatigue. The latter would be the worst-case scenario because that’s a life sentence. I may not have 50 or more years left to live, but I still have enough.