I am in a very pissed-off mood and I don’t feel guilty for it. I hate it here. I absolutely hate it. I spoke with Dave and Barbara who spoke to the housing authority and called the office myself. A girl named Sue told me to wait till Mary Jane comes back since she’s the property manager.

I told Tammy about what Layne and Jenny told me. Supposedly a junkie who lives over in the next court was chasing them through the woods with a gun. People are trying to evict this guy. Also, I heard some other woman who I think lives next door to Dave and Barb, mention a few things. I heard her mention Mary Jane but how or why I don’t know. All I know is that they sound pretty pissed and frantic about a lot of stuff going on around here. Something about a state trooper molesting his kids and another drug bust. Several other things were mentioned concerning this area, but I couldn’t hear enough to find out exactly.

I told all this to Tammy and how I felt bad for her. She went through all this shit to get me here, not able to know about all this. Mainly the noise from next door and how this building is built. Dave again said it is a major dive and mentioned his father at the bottom of the hill and how Mary Jane should never have put me here. After Tammy heard all this from me, Barbara, and then having been here to see and hear it firsthand, she said she’s gonna talk to Mary Jane and tell her I must be moved. The noise is horrendous outside as well as all day on weekends and from 3 PM - 8 PM on weekdays. I’m sick of having to blast my music to block out what sounds like a whole football field of kids. To try and talk on the phone at that time isn’t easy. It’s totally annoying.

Now for the better news. Last week I called Cassandra and started off by saying I was her neighbor and to turn her stereo down. At first, she was completely caught off guard. It was a bad night for her to talk, though, so she returned my call and did the same thing to me. I told her I really did have lots of complaining to do and filled her in on the entire situation.

Damn, do I miss my old place! Of course, not the isolation, but as I told Tammy, certain compromises aren’t acceptable.

Cassandra gave me a number of a very prestigious modeling company exactly like the one that was at the Sheridan till I got cursed. Tonight they were in Holyoke and I’m gonna call to see when and if they’ll be in this area. It sounded very legit and non-sleazy like the other one. It’s for kids and men as well as women and doesn’t require any experience. I’d really love to check this out and I mentioned it to Tammy. I hope having no car won’t botch it up if I ever break into any other possibilities again. Important things to me. Music-related or not.

Fran and Jessie called last night. Of course, at the same time and while a movie was on, but I was recording it, luckily. I was laughing while I told Tammy about Fran’s problem and my response to it. Not the CP lady whose name is Melissa, but Sharon who I’ve taped before, went off on Fran. According to Fran, she and he have had numerous loud fights. Once Sharon pulled off the fire alarm so now he says he’s being evicted. He may move to Winter St. I said to Fran how I envied him and for the first time I really wish to hell I was being evicted.

Jessie and I had a nice talk but she poured her heart out to me all about David. All her boyfriends fuck her over but she settles for the wrong reasons. We discussed her dad’s home in Hawaii and how much both of us want to go. Her father just put in a 9-person hot tub. He has really expanded his house in Woodstock, CT. I’ve never been to his place in New York near the set of Sesame Street but I heard he may have gotten another house in Germany or Paris. Jessie says she’s definitely going to go for a month to Hawaii but doesn’t want to go alone. We’ve discussed my going with her and she’s told me she’s definitely going to talk to Caroll. Cuz Caroll knows me, according to Jessie, all I need to pay for is airfare and all else is paid. Jessie says, of course, there’s no hotel money, and she’s given a rental car to use, and they keep enough food in the house stocked up to serve an army for years. I wanna go!