Today’s Mary’s 24th birthday. I hope she got the card that I made up for her.

Now for a neighborhood update. I was lying awake in bed at 6:30 this morning when all of a sudden, I heard the rhythmic thump of music. I said to myself - music at 6:30 in the morning in Maricopa? Nah, we’re still a few years away from that. But when I got up and turned off the fan, there was no doubt about what I was hearing. It was the people coming to work on the rental’s septic. Why they came that early beats me, but fortunately, they were only there for 15 minutes.

That is so fucking rude! And they so obviously wanted to be heard, to get attention and wake people up. Nonetheless, nobody in the two occupied rentals would dare go out and complain cuz you just don’t do that in Arizona where this is considered to be normal, acceptable behavior. To 90% of the people out here, it’s not rude and inconsiderate. It’s just part of everyday life. Simply a way of living.

This Teddy Bear thing is so hard to live with at times that a part of me wishes we never met or that I never fell for her like I did. But we did meet, and I did fall for her. It’s a wonderful feeling; I just miss her so much it hurts! And I’m so horny all the time for her! I have to relieve myself just about every day. Just the thought of her gets my juices flowing. I still can’t believe that after 35 years I finally met someone that turns me on and that I like as a person and it’s mutual. It’s all mutual!

It’s gonna really hurt if she doesn’t come through and I end up never seeing her again, but I know that in about 2 years, whether or not I see her, the flame will begin to flicker away. That’s how it always works for me.