Two days in a row, thunderstorms woke me. There’s been a group of storms that came through to cool things down. It’s officially winter. I can feel it. It’s the coldest it’s been in here in months. The AC hasn’t needed to run all night and I had to put on a nightie with sleeves, even if the sleeves aren’t much. Another couple of degrees lower and I’d need socks.

Tom’s off till Tuesday cuz of Columbus Day. As much as the freeloaders are still very much a part of our lives, it’s so nice not to have the holiday stress that they’d bring!

Yesterday morning proved just how tightly sealed up this house is compared to our old one. I was out at the break of dawn while he was burying ashes, and you could hear a whole symphony of animals in all directions. There were dogs, chickens, roosters, goats, cows, etc.

Yesterday was also a pretty bad bear day. I really had the “Teddy Bear blues.” I feel like she’ll never wear off of me, but I know that in a year or two she will. That’s how it always works with those I lust for. I don’t just want to get it on with her, but I miss her, too! I just can’t wait till we meet and I learn more about her! 203 days.

I made up a birthday card for Mary. She’ll be 24 on the 15th.

We’re in the midst of bombing Afghanistan now cuz that’s where the fucking Arabs are that are responsible for the terrorist acts of last month. The ones that are still alive, that is. Tom thinks it’s a waste of our money to fly planes into this country that has no defense when all we’d have to do is just drive in. Yeah, but bombs work better when they’re launched from the sky. You can get more people that way. Besides, how are they going to get there from here?

I wish someone would kill all Arab children. Then they couldn’t breed any more of their sick kind and they’d all die off and eventually and become extinct.

I was thinking about it, and God just won’t let us keep our money! Why? Why is he so obsessed with other people taking our money? Why is it so important to him that we never get ahead and that we give our money to other people? Ever since I’ve known him, we’ve been paying others a damn good chunk of our money. First his mom ate us out of thousands, then contractors, then freeloaders.

Who’s next?

Later...

I’ve got about 70 pages left of the Estrella saga to proofread (the last two months). You know, reading this shit is a grim reminder that something up there hates me badly. Real bad. And it’s only a matter of time before it pounces on me again.

Over the next few days, Scot will be waking me up. I’ll just ignore him and hope I’m not too pissed at him, the freeloaders, the pigs, and everyone else involved in this shit, to go back to sleep and continue flipping my schedule. Meanwhile, I’ll see him when I see him. He’s dealing with me on my terms from now on, not his.

I had something irritating my gums where one of the wires was cemented on. The pain started around the time they were mounted, so I was wondering if the cement was rubbing against the gum line. Tom took a look at it since there was no way I could see it, and said it looked like food was lodged just under the gum and he managed to get it out with a plaque stick. Hopefully, this won’t happen again.

He double-checked the babies I sexed, and so far, it seems I did a good job. For now, I have all the ladies together, all the men, and together is the new black male with a baby female with dark gray and white markings.

I have a bad vibe for November 3rd, which is a Saturday. For some reason, knowing it’s on a weekend and not a weekday makes me feel a little better. I also see something big going down around late ‘02 - early ‘03. I just hope it isn’t that bad, whatever it is!