Wow, Ralph’s house is already up for sale. The loud car he
hasn’t driven since he first had his stroke is still there, though. It’s been
covered with a tarp. Really thought I’d have to listen to three or four months
of projects before it went on the market but more than likely it will go to a
flipper who will take the honors of annoying me with projects for months before
it goes to someone I hope to hell doesn’t have a loud vehicle.
Molly, or at least what I’m pretty sure is Molly, looked in on
me on Prosebox. When I suspected she came in, I ran and compared her Twitter
times to that and sure enough, she was around during the time I got the hit. I
know from Aly that she has an iPhone.
Even though she hasn’t done anything to me for quite a while and
she may have changed at least a little, I still don’t like her peeking in on
me. I don’t know why it bothers me. It just does. She was only in for 19
seconds, probably looking for her name or Aly’s. She has me bookmarked, too. I
don’t know what else her interest in me could be about. She already made her
so-called amends, apologized for harassing me in the past, and then we moved
on. So then why is she looking in on me? There’s nothing she should be
interested in since we’re not friends and were never friends in the past.
I was surprised to see that she and Kim are following each
other.
There’s a part of me that thinks it’s silly to continue holding
any grudges after all this time and to just let the past go and say, Aw, so
what if she reads me? At least be polite if not friendly if she contacts me.
But a bigger part of me is still angry with all the shit she and
her mother put me through and just doesn’t want to forgive her even if Kim
actually did worse to me in some ways. Molly at least didn’t impersonate people
like crazy and create one bogus account after another to harass me. Yet there’s
just something about Molly I can’t forgive. I really would prefer not to have
anything to do with her and that includes her not looking in on me.
I found a free script that blocks IP addresses only it’s a Java
thing and Prosebox doesn’t support that. As a test, I dropped my dream blog
link on Twitter after inserting the script. Then again, I know she’s reading my
tweets. I’m amazed she hasn’t followed Aly and me over on Curious Cat.
Either way and as I told Aly, I’m probably going to drop my
public Twitter accounts because I simply don’t need them. So that will be two
more places she can’t follow. I’ve made sure my Facebook account is private and
made my main PB account FO. That much I’m okay with doing since I’m just not as
into socializing as I used to be. Instead, I’ll share more from my newest
bogus PB account, Hula Dancer, where I don’t allow contact and therefore
socializing. This one I created with a time-sensitive email that Aly can’t look
up. The email is not connected to my name at all. Thankfully, Prosebox doesn’t
require confirmation.
If Aly were to stumble upon the account totally by accident, she
should know it’s me even if I change names. I really think that’s how she found
the other one. I stopped using it for over half a year, no one hit it, and then
she did? That couldn’t have been a coincidence. She likely knew about Digital
Expressions before it shut down too, and I’m sure she knows about Dreamwidth,
so it’s a good thing I’ve become more private because I know I say a lot of
things that would offend her. She’s ultra-sensitive so instead of having to
watch every single thing I say, I just keep most things private. Besides, I’m
supposed to be journaling for me. Not an audience. But I’m more willing to
share if it can be anonymous and kept from those I know. I blocked all of Aly’s
known accounts, but luckily she never really cared for PB as opposed to MD, so
it’s unlikely she would stumble upon my other account there. I’ll be sure to
use different titles and not post from multiple accounts at once. Might use
that paraphrasing tool as well but that might be going a bit too far unless she
does start using PB and finds it by accident or googles some of the text in the
copies I send her, if that’s something that can still be done. I’ve actually
set this account to public, so she doesn’t need to be logged in.
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