I didn’t get around to writing about this, but God saw to it that I was punished for calling Bill. Hell, I get punished just for breathing! Anyway, the night I called him, I went to bed at 2:00 and woke up 4 hours later at 6:00 and couldn’t go back to sleep till 9:30 and didn’t get up till 12:30. As soon as I woke up at 6:00, I knew it had to do with my waking up Bill, although the cock answered pretty fast and sounded like he was awake. Anyway, just for calling the cock, this happened. I thought it’d put a major kink in my schedule, but it didn’t. I still went to bed last night at a pretty reasonable hour, although it was a little late. I fell asleep at 1:00, although I was still a bit tired when the alarm went off at 9:00. I snoozed till 10:00 and could’ve easily slept till noon today.

I know God’s gonna really get me for sending the mail I’m going to be sending, but tough shit! I just don’t care anymore about “doing the right thing” because doing the right thing has never gotten me anywhere in the past, so who gives a shit. And besides, I have no respect left for God and I don’t give a damn about his poor little precious feelings. I don’t give a shit if he’s sad, mad or whatever. Not after all the shit he’s allowed to be inflicted on me. If he’s going to punish me simply for being alive, I may as well give him a reason to punish me. Making these people’s lives miserable, even if it’s just for a day, is worth it.

Later...

I cut my bangs back last night. I got tired of waiting for them to grow out and besides, bangs look better on me, even if I do have to trim them constantly and wet them down when I wake up in the mornings.

I have a feeling a killer allergy attack is coming tomorrow. Lately, I get a bit sniffly and sneezy the day before an attack.

Tom should be in any minute. I hope he’s feeling OK. He’s making a stop at the grocery store on his way home to pick up a few things. I’m finding myself stuck more often when I have the regular potatoes that you bake, so I’m having him get me the TV dinner kind. Hopefully, that’ll help. I can’t lose more weight if I’m stuck every other day unless I cut myself to 500 calories a day and I can’t do that. I’ve been 120-121 cuz that sudden magical burst of willpower has been waning away. I’ve been having around 1500 calories lately. Too many for losing weight.