Houdini decided it was playtime earlier than usual. He doesn’t usually want to come out and run around till the early evening, but today he just had to right after I cleaned cages. He was so cute and so loving.

Al Gore and George W. Bush, ex-president Bush’s son, are presidential candidates. I agree with Tom when he says it doesn’t matter which one’s president. They’re all the same, and if you ask me, they’re all lying, cheating, whores who do the country no good at all. I mean, think about it. What wonderful thing has any president ever done for us? I worship the dude who assassinated Lincoln. Lincoln freed the blacks.

Tom told me one of the potential vice presidents is Jewish. So? Show me a woman, gay, or lesbian president, then I’ll be impressed. However, I’m no fool. There’ll never be a woman president in our time and certainly no gay or lesbian president. There won’t even be a black or a Mexican president, thank God, cuz so many people hate them like I do and feel like I do – they cause more problems than anyone in this world. Even if we all suddenly loved blacks and Mexicans, they’re too damn stupid to be president. Most of them can’t even read or write. They’re too busy gang-banging it, raiding the welfare department, or harassing innocent neighbors. Not to mention the fact that half of them are on drugs while the other half are in prison crying racism.

I wasn’t a writer as a teenager, so for the record, I’ll run down my black/Mexican connections. In Williams middle school in Longmeadow, there were a couple of black girls. Remember, everybody in Longmeadow was white and most were Jewish, and it’s probably still that way today. These girls lived in Springfield. I never had any problems with them personally, but I know others did. I got along OK with the few black girls at Valleyhead too, although a couple of them could be bullies at times. There was a Mexican there too, who bullied everyone, myself included. Nonetheless, there were also some white bullies, so I was still colorblind as far as I was concerned.

Once I got out on my own and moved to Springfield, that’s when the blinders came off, with the exception of Steve and very very few others. I had noisy blacks next to me on Locust St., although they moved shortly after I arrived, I had those fucking Puerto Ricans on Oswego St. using me and ripping me off. How differently I’d handle them now if I were meeting them all over again! I certainly wouldn’t be so naïve. I wouldn’t give them the time of day, that’s for damn sure. The whole neighborhood in general was disgusting. From my windows, I could see the degenerates hanging out in clusters and loitering on the streets all day and all night, even in the freezing winters, dealing drugs, and then helping themselves and the kids they and God should never have allowed them to have to the working people’s tax dollars. It made me sick and it still makes me want to puke cuz nothing’s really changed within the welfare system and it never will. If society had any sense they’d tell these blacks and Mexicans – look, you go to work or you starve. The taxpayers can’t and won’t babysit you forever. It wasn’t till I got to Arizona that I really came to detest these people. If I thought the Puerto Ricans were bad and in abundance, you ain’t seen shit till you see these fucking Mexicans and they’re everywhere! They’re pitiful, and not even the rudest one I knew back east comes close to being as rude and as selfish and as vindictive as the Mexicans I had to live with in Phoenix. And I defended these mother-fuckers to people like Tammy. I even defended them! There are fewer blacks out here, thank God, but for every Rican back east, there are 100 Mexies out here. It’s terrible. Just absolutely horrible. I only met one or two kind, polite blacks and Mexicans out here. I had that fucking cock Mexican stomping over my head in the first studio I had at the Vista, then that butch Andi’s shit to deal with. I did have a quiet black neighbor at Crystal Creek, and the Mexicans left me alone there, but then I had to deal with the blacks and Mexicans at the old place. I’m not saying there aren’t any bad whites. Most people, regardless of what they are, are lying, phony, stupid, vindictive, selfish, mean assholes out to screw you any way they can, but when you have a problem with 9 out of every 10 black/Mexican you meet, it’s hard to be blinded to that obvious pattern. 80% of the whites may be mother-fuckers, but 99.9% of the blacks and Mexicans are, too.