I can’t believe it took me this long to figure out how my fingerprints got on threatening letters I never sent! How could I have been so stupid?! When the pig was interrogating me, he asked if I recognized these “letters,” which he handed to me. That’s how my prints got on them and that’s how the fucking bastard of a pig framed me. Wait till I tell Tom tomorrow, who’s in bed now. Again, though, the problem is proving it. The freeloaders would have to be recorded discussing it, and I don’t see how that’ll ever happen.

In about 6 hours, I’ll get to sleep through another “Are you OK?” from the nurse on my soft, comfortable bed. Then they’ll exchange towels for the 4th time that week. Then Baldilocks will be yelling on her hour out, and on and on and on!

In the end, Palma would be the highlight of A Tower, and Teddy Bear would be the highlight of M Dorm. Most of the DOs were cool, once they got to know you.

I still can’t say I really have any regrets. Not with all I learned about life and even myself. I learned I’m tougher than I thought I was, met interesting people, and fell in love with such a wonderful woman. And it was mutual! All I regret is the time I lost from Tom, the animals, the house, and the negatives of being in jail – the shitty food, the cold showers, the hard beds, the bad bunkies, and the lost sleep.

For now, I just enjoy my freedom and wait for my Teddy Bear (and hope nothing fucks it up in the meantime). I know she’ll be in my future.

And between my legs.

It’s inevitable. I just know it.

I will be blessed with two loves – a man and a woman. Do I feel any guilt over having the best of both worlds and leaving jail twice loved? Nope. If Tom had a problem with Teddy Bear, he’d have said so by now, and I don’t think the man’s stupid. He knows we won’t be just friends. Another reason I don’t feel guilty is that the man hasn’t shown an ounce of desire for me since I’ve been home, but as you know, this has been going on for years. It was only at the beginning of our relationship that he lusted for me. This has become a mutual thing over time. I don’t have any desire for him, either. After so many years of screwing the same person, it gets old. I’m sure I’ll tire of Teddy Bear someday too, when it’s no longer new and exciting. So why do I stay with him? Because I love him, and I know he loves me. I think my relationship with Teddy Bear will be more of a lust thing. I’m not gonna say I don’t have any feelings for her, because I do. Especially with all she’s done to help me. And I know there are feelings on her part too, or else she wouldn’t have bothered doing the things she’s done for me.

Unlike mine, Tom says his gut instinct is that she won’t contact me before a year is up for fear of it getting back to my PO.

Now, how would it do that?

She won’t wait.

Later...

While we were bombing the house, we went to two different pet stores today and got a total of 7 new animals! At Petsmart, we got a couple of male fancy rats. I named them Tom and Dick to go with Harry. At Petco, I got a female jumbo rat who looks exactly like Houdini and named her Teddy Bear. There, I also got 4 mice, but one of them, like Harry, doesn’t look like it’ll make it. I got one gray female and 3 male mice. Two of the males are dark brown and white, and one is brown.