Gonna have to stop the Atkins diet or at least severely tweak it by adding some carbs due to my stomach being horribly bloated and gassy. It’s been terrible. No amount of weight loss is worth feeling this yucky. I swear every time I start a new diet I have a problem. I’m either too hungry to stand it or in this case, I’m a gasaholic. Fuck diets. There are plenty of ways to still eat healthy most of the time without dieting or going to any kind of extremes. 

Not sure why I woke up a little congested this morning, but I am otherwise fine as long as this gas would just hurry up and back off. Tom said it may take a few days and that makes sense. He suggested I start having yogurts again because they’ve got stuff in them that’s really good for the digestive tract. 

The diet was working, though, as is usually the case when you expend more calories than you consume. Only thing was that the Atkins diet left me less hungry so I could stand the calorie cuts. I doubt I would have lost much more than a few pounds because like it or not, low-cal or not, I still have I dead thyroid. For now, let’s just stay fat and not fart. ;) 

An online friend mentioned adult coloring books, and I thought, oh hey, that would be a good idea. So since we’re getting a new toner cartridge for a laser printer anyway, I printed out a bunch of adult coloring pages containing a variety of things… fashion, flowers, animals, abstracts and patterns. I practically got a whole book’s worth. 

Earlier I grabbed a 12-pack of colored twistable pencils from the grocery store. I’ll get a bigger variety from Walmart some other time. There’s no real purpose in this other than that I find it a bit relaxing. I mean I’m not going to send them to anyone and I’m not going to tape them on the walls or refrigerator. LOL 

No noise from Bob today that I know of, but it wouldn’t surprise me in the least if I heard that damn saw next week. I’ve never known him to finish a project in just one shot. I just wish people would give me the same consideration I give them. I shouldn’t have to hear what’s going on with others. I don’t make them listen to me. The only time anyone around here would hear from us would be when we’re trimming or blowing. 

I had a dream that I was at this strange little lodge. I actually stopped there because I was waiting for someone to pick me up in front. A male guest went into a room and closed the door behind him. Then a female manager or owner said something like, “Good, now stay locked in there until I can find out if there’s anything wrong with you.” 

Then I looked up at a little screen on the wall and knew that if a green dot appeared that would mean the guy had never been a problem there before. A red dot appeared, however, and a speech reader read complaints about the person insisting they were hungry the last time they were there. 

Not wanting to get caught up in any possible trauma, I decided to wait for my ride outside. 

Later… 

I’ve been a naughty girl again. I always look for ways to see things people don’t want me to see without breaking any laws. Well, since Maliheh blocked my account I had to go into Tom’s, but I found that if I type the words “photos of” and then the person’s name, I can often see photos of them that aren’t public. 

Figuring that Maliheh probably doesn’t know about this trick, I couldn’t resist emailing her the pics and asking her why she sent them to me on other sites, LOL. Of course I never got a reply. 

I decided that if I ever again decide to contact the bitch down in Arizona, I’m not going to go directly to her and it’s going to be a long time from now. Like another five years or so. Let her think she’s never going to hear from me again, then remind her of my existence. As I learned a long time ago, sometimes we have to do what we feel is right in our heart and not worry so much about breaking laws (within reason) or appearing childish because if we don’t and we keep that anger or feelings about a particular thing bottled up, it can really cause us to explode or at least eat at us at times. Although I will always hate her guts along with those that had a hand in screwing me, and I will never forgive her, I’m not as angry as I was in the past.

Still, I wouldn’t mind pointing out all the little bloopers her little friend made in their email to me pretending to be a cop. And if that really was a cop by some chance, and if I send a letter to someone on her friend list that she appears to be in touch with regularly and that’s an adult, what are they going to do, make a case against me for “attempted” contact or something? They can’t charge me for what I didn’t say to her. 

I’m still really surprised there was never any default warrant out for my arrest. I thought they would have gone to court and then put a Failure to Appear warrant out on me just like they did in the year 2000. 

In much better news, Tom and I were looking online at various cruise lines and their destinations and prices. The cruise that appealed to me the most is a 7-day cruise to Jamaica, Haiti, Mexico and the Cayman Islands. My only concern would be my schedule. It would be damn expensive too, but we could probably swing it. Nothing’s etched in stone yet but to think that I will be seeing family after more than 20 years, and flying, and cruising and going to more countries is pretty damn exciting. Going back to places I love like Maui is one thing, but I also like to add a new country to my list, too. Tom will just have to get a new passport since he stupidly lost his up in Oregon, LOL, unless someone stole it.