Woke up feeling more rested (even though I took a nap) and less like I had a cold. My lymph nodes aren’t too bad, although I’ve also felt the ones under my jaw and my left groin at times. Today’s problem is that mysterious pain I sometimes get in my upper right stomach. I don’t think it’s enough pain for gallbladder issues and I haven’t been doing anything where I would have pulled muscles in that area, but it’s something that comes and goes along with the lymph nodes swelling. Never really paid attention to say if it happens at the same time or not. I’m thinking it’s either connected to my liver or large intestine, likely the latter. I’m just not sure what, why or how.

When I felt shitty yesterday, I didn’t eat much and realized that if I ever lost a significant amount of weight, something would have to be wrong. Better to keep my appetite and my weight because then I at least know I feel good and am healthy! Since dropping my processed diet in favor of unprocessed foods, the risk of gaining weight has gone way down. But if my body is comfortable staying at 155, then I’m comfortable.

If you diet and lose weight, great. If you diet and don’t (assuming nothing’s wrong with you), then you were likely meant to be where you are.

I had catfish and an avocado an hour or so after I got up. Now I’m baking a chicken breast.

No longer doing voice journals with Alyssa’s chat thread because I noticed that some of them said error after a while. So I decided not to bother.

It may be too soon, but things are starting to reopen. So eventually it’s going to be maddening around here again. You know, if I was the type who could brainwash myself and I wanted to make myself believe there was something up there listening to me, all I’d have to do is ask for noisy neighbors when we move. Yeah, I know better. I know that if there’s anything up there - and that’s a big if - it’s totally pointless to even bother to try to ask for a quiet place because I know it won’t happen. Just not meant to be.

Got tired of asking Kim to tone down the messages and trying to explain that six 1-minute messages or more are a bit much. She’ll respect my wishes for a while, then it’s right back to the long, rambling bullshit. I’m tired of her repetition, too! She’ll tell me the same thing over and over again in a 1-minute message. But at least she’s gullible as fuck and I could convince her my speaker and mic broke so we must revert back to texting. I can skim these faster. FB offers no way to speed up or jump through voice messages in increments.