Why is it that when a woman is raped and has her trust of guys in general shot, she’s never labeled a horrible sexist? But if a white person gets screwed by a black person(s) and has their trust in blacks as a whole dampened and knows it’s going to take time to accept them again, they’re automatically deemed this awful racist? This is just something I’ve noticed in general.

Since I like to keep track of things, I’m writing the word “tired” on my calendar every day that I don’t have enough energy for things like working out. Gives me a better idea of just how often it is.

The fact that I’ve had 5 days ranging from borderline to anxious this month alone is both awful and discouraging. Even right now I’m feeling a little iffy. Not as good emotionally as I could be.

Also, the Tea Tree nail polish was the bust I suspected it would be. I still have some discoloration and even more lifting. So it’s got to be either fungus, nail psoriasis, or both. I’ll hit it with Lamisil for a couple of weeks and hope for the best even though I suspect that won’t work either. At that point, it’s time to give up. As I’ve always said, there’s a time to try things, and then there’s a time to accept that some things are simply meant to be the way they are. I can cover it with nail polish and I’m not in pain or anything. So it won’t kill me to have ugly nails hiding under polish.

Vicky called yesterday to let me know that the dentist thinks she can hit all three fillings at once and has made time for it, so unless I have questions that cause her to run overtime, they should all be done on the 30th. At first I was worried she was calling to cancel.

I noticed that Christiane added the name Lisette in front of her name. So Christiane is her middle name?

Aly’s kind of misleading me, however unintentional it may be, as to who she was referring to in the tweets where she spoke of making herself harder to find and that she often thinks of ghosting someone who brings little joy, comfort and understanding to her life. When I confronted her about it after giving her time to tell me it was or wasn’t me or Kim (she at least said she wouldn’t dump me without talking to me first), she said it was someone she knew in person. Then she told me about the problems she’s had with Cam’s SIL Summayah and I said something about now understanding “those” tweets. But she never said she wasn’t talking about Summayah.

Yesterday I asked about her and whether or not she was trying to find her online. She said she wasn’t computer savvy and she had her email address although never used it.

Okaaay, I can’t force the truth out of anyone just like I could never get Tammy to own up to her part in her and Bill siccing the pigs on me and therefore the white/Jew-hating freeloaders. But come on! I know she was talking about me. I wonder, though, does she still think of ghosting me? Or at least dumping me with an explanation?