I just got done talking to Andy and he may call me back later.

So, what did the sick, cruel, unfair, evil bastard do this time? Well, 23-year-old, young, dumb, naïve, whacked out, on-and-off druggie Karson’s pregnant. Like Andy said, “Thank God.” He’s a real winner.

Tammy called before I woke up and she and Tom talked computer talk for quite a while. She got the 3 game disks we sent today and she had questions as to how to install them.

Later...

Someone tried to call early last evening, but if it was Jenny, who knows? Tom says it’s probably curiosity that’s driving her to resume the friendship if this is really what she’s hoping for. I don’t even know if she got her letter and certificate, but I’d say she probably did.

Tom will be getting up in a half-hour, but is there any chance he’ll initiate sex? Most certainly not.

We were joking about what is still a serious matter earlier. He was playing this really cool game on the computer called Balistic when he said he wished he’d hurry up and lose cuz he wanted to go to bed. Then I said that if he didn’t want to go to bed, he’d probably lose then. Just like the baby thing. It’s those who don’t want one who are given one. Then he said that that ought to prove he really does want one. I said, “Yeah!” Then, “But I’m sure that all it takes is one person to want it.”

We laughed as he said that wasn’t true.

So anyway, I told Tom, “The next time we have sex, fantasize about being a druggie and killing people and tell yourself you hope this doesn’t make a baby, then we might get one.”

Well, the last of those 3 fantasies is really true as far as he’s concerned. I do want to believe he wants a kid, but I’m still 99.9% sure he doesn’t, is full of shit and is just all talk for the sake of pleasing me.

The last time we screwed was really frustrating. We just couldn’t get the angle right and there was so much air pressure in me cuz he entered me hard and not semi-hard and cuz I’m small and he’s big.

Andy and Michelle found an apt. They’re moving on March 1st and he brought up a suggestion for his birthday other than a toaster. The same thing I got him two birthdays ago. Address labels.

We attempted to re-ink old ribbons, but so far it’s been nothing but a mess and a hassle. I’m sure we’ll find an easier way, though.

I’m in the kitchen now making Lipton garlic noodles.