If you like the sound of landscaping, then Tuesdays are the days you would love it here. They do the greenbelt and one of the houses across the street on Tuesdays so it’s definitely the most active day for those mowers and blowers.

I totally love the new bidet and wish I’d gotten it years ago. It always leaves me as fresh as if I just stepped out of the shower. If only I had known! I don’t know if it was the treatment or the lack of regular use of a bidet or not always wearing all-cotton underwear that was giving me so many problems, but it’s great to feel so much better! Really thought I was doomed for life down there.

I just worry it might be a bit cold in the winter because it’s pretty cool right now and it’s 100° out there.

It has six levels of pressure and I like it best between one and two. I honestly don’t see how anybody could stand getting even remotely close to max pressure without ripping their asses apart.

I like the regular setting better than the feminine setting because the regular setting gets more toward the front of me. The feminine setting is actually best for taking dumps.

The only thing I hate is that now the toilet seat is even higher. That’s because the bidet nozzle goes between the bowl and the seat. You have to wedge these rubber pieces between the lid and bowl to fill in the gap, and I woke up to find the two back pieces in the toilet. Tom will glue them when he gets home.

Hoping to get bidets with dryers in the next place. Then, just like we eliminated our need for gas by getting an electric car, we wouldn’t need toilet paper either.

Had to get pig food on Amazon but I’m not going to get additional popcorn makers. Yeah, all the colors are cool but I really don’t need a dozen popcorn makers. My pink and purple ones are enough.

Sick of that live chat thing already. The people are boring and it’s not like I’m thirsting to talk to strangers, make new cyber pals, or meet anyone. It’s almost all men and if I don’t get some kid, I get some slut. To each their own but I just don’t find these folks interesting. I guess I’m just picky and hard to impress.

We were talking about when we think we can get out of here, and while life isn’t usually what we plan it and things often take longer than expected, we’re hoping that if things go well with his apps, next year. If not, the year after.

Still excited to return to country living despite the pros and cons. One concern is if he has a 45-minute drive to work and I absolutely have to start a new medication, well, that may be scary with a medication phobia and even scarier if something went wrong. Also, we do have an electric car and it can’t drive forever.

There are also pros and cons of going off the grid. I would prefer to have everything we need already there (the well, electricity), but then if we went off-grid we could pick out our own house. I’m hoping for 5-10 acres to get further from the street as opposed to 1-2 acres, but it seems that the bigger parcels are more likely to be off the grid.

I finally got a health update from Tammy and it’s not good. I was under the impression she was doing better and that she didn’t have sarcoidosis but just typical lung damage from smoking. I keep getting conflicting reports when I look up the life expectancy for those with sarcoidosis. Some say it will kill you within a decade by causing complications with things like the heart, lungs and brain. Other reports say it’s not disabling and most people live normal lives with it.

They’re going to be burning nerves during two separate surgeries next month in her lower back. I was surprised to hear this because I thought she said that when they did this in her neck, it failed to help and actually made things worse.

She had to get a fentanyl patch recently but says the sarcoidosis, which she does have, is stable at the moment.

Another thing is something with a heart valve that is being closely monitored. That’s the scariest thing she mentioned because that’s something that certainly could affect me as well with all the heart disease running in the family. I’m hoping that because I quit smoking a lot younger than anyone else did and am in better shape, I’ll escape these issues or at least not get hit with them until much later in life. I know that being thinner and more active than other family members doesn’t make me exempt from problems but I’m doing my best mostly by keeping active and eating healthy. It’s a lot easier to cut out sodium than cholesterol because I feel like my food options are limited without meat.

Aly went to her GYN this morning for a pelvic exam and some x-rays to make sure she doesn’t have any more fibroids, and I’m waiting for a report from her and hoping she doesn’t need that hysterectomy but it may be the only solution to these ongoing problems she’s been having. She’s been suffering a lot of pain and bleeding on and off. It’s really too bad she’s not able to have that bone marrow operation as well. This country is just so fucking fucked up when it comes to healthcare, and it’s scary how many doctors fuck up as well. They misdiagnosed Tammy, and 5 years ago they told me I was “just anxious,” 2 years ago they told me I had first LP and then LS, and how long would it have been before a doctor was smart enough to tell me to question my brand of medication had I not caught onto that myself?

She said two doctors have told her that the humidity is making her worse but I wonder why she wants to go to North Carolina? It may not be as humid as Florida but it’s still humid enough. I’d go to New Mexico or Nevada. Can’t recommend Arizona after what that fucking state did to me.