Was glad to finally sleep better after nearly a week and to have enough energy to jog down to the lake and back. As I was coming back up from the lake and turned onto Oak, I saw tons of cars parked on the outer edge of it and at first I was like, WTF? Then I looked down toward the first curve in the road and saw them prepping for today’s “road rage.” Yesterday they repaved the front part of the park, and the road we usually turn on when we come in the front gate was closed off, so he had to go the other way. It was open when he left early this morning.

I wonder if he’ll be able to get in on Thursday when our section is on for repaving? He may have to park down at the clubhouse or somewhere.

This fucking park, man. There’s always something going on here. Always.

Anyway, I didn’t feel any traces of anxiety yesterday but for a couple of hours earlier, I had mild traces of it. Going to see how I do until the end of the month and then decide whether or not I think it’s worth going back to 75s in time to push my TSH down under 10 for labs and all that. I’m not ready to call it a bust yet, but if it does get worse, then that puts me back to square one as far as trying to figure out what it could be. I still think some brands made it worse but I’m not sure about the dose at this point. I’m still hoping most of it is on me approaching menopause and that will be in just under three months if I can make it without another period. I’ve been hot flashing, so if I can still do that, I guess I could still get anxious and have those bouts of racing HRs.

Tom had a good point in saying that it seems to be less often and less intense lately. I suppose it’s unreasonable to think it would ever stop just like that, like flicking a light switch. Still, I really hope it’s connected to that and not the medication itself or me simply acquiring a medical disorder that makes me anxious on and off. If it was the medication itself, though, then I would think it would make me anxious every single time I took it, no matter what the dose or brand. Me just up and becoming this way for the rest of my life? I still can’t buy that one but I sure as hell hope not!

Yesterday was the first day I needed a Tucks in a while.

Hate the new Twitter. All they did was rearrange things and not give us features we could actually use. Hate the way my cover pic no longer stretches across the screen and how I can’t just hover over the name of someone and see their tweet count. There are some people I don’t actually follow but look in on every now and then. Some don’t always tweet and I used to be able to hover over their name and see if their tweet count had risen since the last time I checked. At this rate, I’d say they’re never going to let us edit tweets or make some private. A calendar would be nice to quickly jump to older tweets, too.