I was thinking back on how I’ve had a strong feeling of being on the verge of a major change. I’ve had this feeling for several months now. I’m seriously starting to wonder if the virus is connected to that major change. I’ve noticed that my life has been a series of one long-term problem after another. I wonder if this is the next one since I’ve beaten most of the anxiety. However, it might end up being a blessing for us personally rather than a crisis. It’s looking more likely that he will put in for early retirement and we won’t be here another 4 years after all. This is an exciting prospect but I don’t want to get my hopes up too high because it’s hard for me to believe anything up there would give us a break like that and let us out of such a noisy place earlier. The skies have been peaceful due to the virus, but it’s not going to last forever. Sooner or later this thing is going to fizzle out and life is going to return to normal.

But for now, it’s almost like something up there is being good to us for a change and timing things in our favor. He’s thinking about applying for early retirement right away, but he also doesn’t want it to screw up the chance of us getting stimulus checks either. They don’t give these things to retirees.

If we do get out of here in about a year instead of four more years, it will be the first time life wasn’t what we planned it to be in a good way.

I’m hoping that we’ll ship what we want to take with us to a storage place in Florida (which is where I still think we’ll end up) so we can “sample” the place for a handful of months to make sure that climate isn’t going to have any negative effects on either of us and then get a place if it doesn’t. While there would be benefits to getting land out in the country somewhere, it really is more practical for us to stick with adult communities because we’re getting older. They’re not all this noisy. Not every house is on busy streets in a large park and in a flight path. We also wouldn’t hear loud mowers and blowers every single fucking day in that climate. So while it may not literally be “quiet,” it can definitely be quieter than this. After all, every other place I’ve ever lived was quieter than this.

I do sometimes miss having more alone time, but I would rather miss that than have him gone for 12 hours a day most days.

He’s decided he’s going to write some kind of sci-fi story for CampNaNo about rich people on a spaceship to Mars but he isn’t sure if it’s going to be more serious and suspenseful or funny. He’s basically going to have the people act really weird and do all kinds of off-the-wall things, not that he expects to finish it, LOL.

He and I accepted Aly’s cabin invite, although now they call them writing groups. Kim hasn’t joined us yet.

Speaking of Aly, she never denied it was me she was thinking of ghosting. If it wasn’t me, why didn’t she tell me who it was? Also, the other day I told her it was fun chatting with her and that I really valued our friendship. She said it was fun chatting with me as well but never said she valued our friendship in return. So, it makes me wonder at times, but she’s going to do whatever she’s going to do. Meanwhile, she’s not judgmental of me and the way I live my life. She doesn’t try to change me. She doesn’t do anything toxic except lie at times, so I have no problem with sticking around and letting her be a part of my life until and if she decides she would rather not be.

They set aside a special time for older people to go to Walmart, so that’s another reason to be glad he’s older. He’s going to get us some stuff tomorrow.

I’m going to be replacing my avocados. I’ll miss them, but it’s just too hard to find ripe avocados, and when I do, I can’t eat them all before some of them start going bad. It’s either that or wait days for them to ripen and that gets kind of old. So I’ll replace them with other fruits.

I think that a few days before my appointment with Dr. A, I’m going to call and see if I can cancel and just have the doctor call in my refills since I’m healthy and not having any problems. If there’s any place a person could catch this virus, it would be by going to a doctor’s office, urgent care, emergency rooms, or hospitals, and I don’t want to expose myself when I’ve been feeling fine.

No nap today as I slept better and wasn’t fatigued. I think my problem was that I was going too low on carbs. I’m going to add a cup of chicken broth for the extra sodium to my diet and see if that helps. I’ve been slacking off on going low-carb because of the fatigue, but if this helps and the keto shakes he’s going to get, then I’ll get back on track.

We went out walking as the sun was setting but only for 15 minutes as it was both cold and windy. This is unusual for this time of year.

Just removed my polish and my nails look much better. So using a base coat underneath the polish has definitely helped without a doubt. I’ll never polish my fingernails without it again! My toenails have quite a bit of fungus. Really hope they don’t get infected because I know oral medication would be the only way to get rid of it.

Later...

Last night I was lying in bed listening to my audiobook, I picked up my phone and realized I had dozens of scam messages in my spam folder. So one by one, I replied by letting speech-to-text capture a few sentences of the book I was listening to. A few messages bounced and one replied asking what the hell I was talking about, LOL.

It pisses me off that they continue to bullshit us about the stimulus check they’ve been promising that we never get. If we were in another country, we would have gotten a generous amount of money days ago. Why is it so damn hard for this country to take care of its own, and why is it that only oversees tragedies matter and gets prompt responses?

We definitely got the wrong neighbors across from Bob and Virginia. Yeah, they’re already back to the sawing sprees again. I’m not going to listen to this shit every two to three weeks even if I only have another year here. I didn’t sign on for that shit. This is a community, not a fucking workshop! I’m really sorry the guy that lived there died. His blasting TV was preferable to circular saws. Now, circular saws may be better than loud vehicles that could wake me up, but enough is enough! Just like with a million other things I hear around here, never before has this been a problem. Only in this place has it been a regular issue. No other place or community have I ever lived where I would hear power tools many times a year. Or get my water turned off. They turned it off for a few hours today.

I can’t wait to get the fuck out of here someday and ditch the planes, daily landscaping, projects galore, loud vehicles, and water outages! I may end up moving into the same old shit but at least it should be further away from the house.

I can say that the planes have been much better lately. I don’t know if it’s the direction of the wind or on account of the virus, but I have been totally loving these peaceful nights. Even the freeway is kind of dead. I treasure these quiet nights because I know they’re not going to last forever. But this is the way the nighttime should sound everywhere…quiet!

My new silicone rainbow laces I got for my pale pink running sneakers were six bucks well spent! They’re way better than the stretchy elastics we got before. I’m going to get neon yellow ones for my neon yellow and orange-pink sneakers.