I’m having one seriously hungry day today. Just can’t get rid of it no matter what I eat. This is the kind of hunger I would get when I would get regular periods.

I’m also starting to wonder if perhaps it isn’t a fungus of some type in my nails, after all. Not just because I can’t believe polish would suddenly affect me negatively but because of the way they look and the fact that they hurt if I put pressure on some of them. Looks like it could be the same stuff that’s in my toes, and in which case, the only way to get rid of it may be oral treatment. I sure hope not, though! Insured soon or not, I don’t want to start having all these problems and I definitely don’t want to have to take medication, even if it would only be temporary and he would be home since my feeling is he won’t be working till around the middle of next month.

Last night I was rolling my head around because my neck felt a little stiff. I noticed that it had a very calming effect on me, not that I was anxious. I felt great yesterday. I wonder, though, if it would help the next time I do get anxious. And sadly, there will be a next time. I would guess it probably won’t help, though. If it really is the medication, as I’ve always suspected, then the only way to get rid of the anxiety is for the medication to get out of my system or at least not be in it as much. Still can’t hurt to try it the next time I feel wound up.

Although I do look slimmer, particularly in the waist, I would be very surprised if my weight was down anymore tomorrow which is weigh-in day. But we’ll soon find out.

Tom brought in some hazardous waste to a recycling center that takes that stuff along with some old fluorescent bulbs. He was told that whenever we have dead batteries, just place them in a bag on top of our recycle bin and they’ll take them. That’s good to know.

Later...

Quick update on Aly while Tom is out getting new pants and I’m relaxing. In response to my telling her I had a dream she dumped me, she said she thought she was being ghosted because I’m “good at finding things out.” I knew damn well that she knew I saw those tweets. I’m just not sure if she’s hacking, tracking, keeping tabs on me closer than I thought she was or what. Now she’s in my PB journal, so just as I’ve always suspected, she’s got an account I’m unaware of. Wouldn’t block it if I suddenly knew of it, though. She’d only create another one. I’m pretty selective about what I share there because I know she’s watching. I just don’t know why. What is it she’s looking for?

Anyway, in light of her comment, I took that as my cue to come clean and tell her that yes, I discovered the account and had to pull back for a while to think of what I wanted to do. She did tell me that she wouldn’t disappear without talking to me first, so maybe it’s Kim she’s thinking of ghosting. She wouldn’t say and I didn’t press the matter. As I told her, I didn’t want to embarrass her or make her feel put on the spot so that’s why I hadn’t said anything until now. I told her that while I hope she and I are always friends, I understand that I can’t make her remain in my life if she wants to walk away, and I’ll respect her wishes. I still have a feeling I’ll eventually be dumped and if I am, so be it. I’ll just be her friend as long as she wants to be friends and doesn’t give me a really good reason to be the one to cut her off.