Despite their crazy shipping costs, I ordered 6 dresses, 2 jumpsuits, 1 swimsuit, 2 pairs of shoes, and a couple of silver snake rings from Airy. Can’t wait! I’ll be set for a while now.

No response to my message on the portal. I’m guessing that just like I didn’t get the doctor’s message, they didn’t get mine. Good thing it’s almost open season because like it or not, we’ve got to change medical groups. Advent Health simply has way too many problems. I don’t know that we can find anything better but we should definitely try.

Yesterday I was horrible for most of the day. Today I’ve been better but I’m a little iffy right now. Definitely worried about taking an 88 tomorrow. Today’s a 75 day. Worst case scenario, I cut the 88s out and I remain hypo. Or maybe I can tolerate 88s once or twice a week. If I can’t get through to the doctor on the portal, though, which is ridiculous, I’ll have to play phone with them and hope I can get through that way.

According to the newsletter, on the 6th, they’re having a free dinner social at the clubhouse. It might be a little too sociable and awkward for Tom but I’ll be available schedule-wise and will see if he wants to go. I’m sure he would if I really wanted to but I’m OK with whatever he wants. I just noticed it was something free and on my schedule.

Just like I knew I would, I got woken up once or twice by tractors going by but fell back asleep right away, and we’re pretty sure they’re done today. I just wonder how long it will be before the next project.

Next time around it’ll likely be thunder that takes the honor of waking me up.

We decided to try those soundproof window shutters in the bedroom even though we soundproofed the bed rather than the whole room like I wish to hell we’d done. It was stupid of me to suggest we do the bed. But what’s done is done. Meanwhile, we can still test how well these things work. They would not only darken the room more but also add another layer of soundproofing since most sound comes through windows, and these single-paned windows are junk.

The helicopters are making up for the planes which sucks because they are a threat to my sleep. They both suck but yeah, tonight and last night I never heard a single plane. However, the copters are getting more like Citrus Heights. I don’t understand the uptick in helicopter activity but we’ve been getting a few a day. Some are very loud and low.

Worked out a bit on the treadmill and my vibration platform. I’ll never lose any weight but it sure keeps the back pain away.

Definitely starting to feel more anxious so yeah, tomorrow I’ve got to make a decision depending on how the 88 affects me. I’m not too surprised because if it is the medication as I suspect it is, it makes sense that I wouldn’t feel as anxious right away today since I took a lower dose but would still feel some. As the hours pass by after your last dose, the level starts dwindling in your system and then goes back up when you take the next dose so I would have to take 88 less often for it to get lower in my system and stop stabbing me in the chest with waves of adrenaline.

Although anything is better than anxiety, I still really worry about being hypo for the rest of my life. I fear I’m going to keep gaining weight and that right there is going to not only hinder my everyday movements but quite possibly lead me to more health problems. I swear it’s like something doesn’t want me to have a normal thyroid!

I wish I knew if my body could get used to this dose in time as it did with the 75s but since I can’t know that or how long it would take if it would, it will probably be better to back off if tomorrow is a bad day. If I knew it would go away in a few weeks or so I would tough it out but I can’t know that. No lung tightness and my heart doesn’t feel racy, it’s just the damn adrenaline stabbing me in the center of the chest. I’ve fucking had it with this shit and I’m not going to go through it again.

Took a second Gennev so hopefully it will help.

Later…

I was hoping that since I was in for a peaceful night, I would get a peaceful morning yesterday but nope. The first plane didn’t even wait until 5:00.

Last night’s sleep disturbance was Alexa deciding to quit playing nature sounds. To be fair, though, I had woken up first to pee.

In the last month, Stephanie jumped from level 11 to 19. Mia jumped from level 30 to 39. You don’t really level up faster with Pro. You just get more coins and gems whenever you level up and log in.

Cashed in $50 worth of Amazon gift cards with my Bing points!