I’m definitely not in a good mood right now. I was so excited to finally be able to let my body wake up on its own after having to set alarms for so many days and being exhausted. Yet I’m still exhausted! And I’m still trying to figure out why. Low thyroid? Sleep apnea? Depression? Well, with my sensitivity to medication, I can’t treat these things any more than I already have. I’m not going to increase my thyroid dose, of course, but maybe bringing 45 minutes to an hour of waiting time might help. I doubt it, but it's worth a try.

He gets free stuff every few months because he’s on Medicare. So I had him get me a pillbox since there wasn’t anything he really needed this time around. Now I don’t have to get up and try to remember if I’m supposed to take a 75 or an 88 that day.

Anyway, I was out front for a bit while he filled the planter that was left here with dirt, and we planted a mix of cosmos seeds in it. The sunlight seemed to perk me up, but it was very short-lived. I ended up napping shortly after.

Right now, I’m frustratedly working on a painting. I just don’t have the knack for this! Things really do change with age. Just because I was a little artistic when I was young, doesn’t mean I still am. They make it look so easy in their tutorials yet I’m having a hell of a time doing even the simpler parts, which is the background. I just can’t always get my colors right and when I do, I still don’t get it to look like it’s supposed to. I’m working on one that shows a lit candle reflecting on a window full of raindrops with a stormy evening sky behind it. It's supposed to be right as the sun is setting. I stepped back and compared mine with theirs and my sunset didn’t quite glow as yellowy as theirs does. Also, my sky and ground look more like splotches of color than anything else.

I regret spending all this money on painting supplies and the witchcraft kit. Complete waste of money. I might even undo the paper and oil pastels if I could. Coloring and diamond painting is all I can really do.

Anyway, I got the background done and I’ll attempt to get the candles and raindrops on later or tomorrow.