Been horribly drowsy today even though I slept fine. I suspect my steroid ointment. I probably put too much on and I definitely didn’t wipe afterward.

I’m going to be too tired to do much work on the dollhouse today. So far I only managed to make a pillow that’s barely as big as my pinky fingernail.

Aly starts work part-time at a daycare center tomorrow. Hoping she won’t be able to text me while she’s working. LOL, first I missed hearing from her and now I wish I’d hear from her a little less often. Too much is simply too much. Plus, there’s only so much I can update her on in the course of a few hours or less. I’m sure she’ll find ways to text me during breaks, though, just like Marie would.

Last night I dreamed that Lisa gave a sad “reaction” to something I posted to someone else’s FB wall, signaling to me that she no longer held a grudge against me. Then I learned she was getting married. In the dream, I wondered if she would have kids and noticed her profile picture was incredibly beautiful.

In reality, she could never react to a comment of mine unless she created another account to do it from because I’ve got her blocked as well. I know she would never unblock me either or forgive me for what I did and didn’t do to her. Just the fact that she blocked me around the time I went to Florida told me that much as well as not getting a response to the letter I gave to Tammy to give to her, assuming Tammy really did give it to her. I apologized for what I’m truly guilty of and that’s really all I can do. Her behavior has shown that I’m better off without her in my life. It may not be her fault that she’s bipolar but those are very hard to deal with. All nice and lovey-dovey one minute, then angry, accusatory and paranoid the next. I don’t need that hate and rage in my life. The whole damn family is like one big emotional bomb and I don’t want to get hit by the blast whenever there are explosions.