The sun has never looked so red here. I’m guessing it has to do with the wildfires further north.

Using the schedule predictor program, I was able to reschedule my endo appointment. It worked great and it’s a really awesome program. The only problem is that now I have to wait till October 15th but oh well. It’s not like it’s an emergency.

I’m back to voice blogging on Tumblr using Vocaroo’s recorder. I don’t know how long that will last but we’ll see. There’s another online recorder I would have preferred to use that sounds better and snips any silent sections but it literally takes forever to download.

I’m sitting here going back and forth in my mind as to whether or not I should publish any more books because I’m just never going to make any real money that way. There are simply too many books out there despite so many people not being able to write very well and lacking interest in reading. It really does seem like you have to be famous or infamous in order to make sales.

Then something hit me. If the Revenge story ever reaches anyone that “inspired” it, particularly the black bitch, I could very well become infamous. I just know that had the internet been what it is now 18 years ago, I would have been trending everywhere, as sick, sad, twisted and unfair as it may be (though I wonder how many would’ve wondered why something so petty was getting the same attention murderers and celebrities get as opposed to automatically siding with blacks). That would have generated a huge amount of sales at least for a while. It would be my shit luck to make sales after I was dead, too.

I would appreciate it if the story not only reached the intended readers but was also kept between us as it always should have been but I would rather it reach them and become infamous in death than for it not to reach them and nothing to happen. If I don’t die till my late 70s, though, there’s no saying how many of them may still be around but sooner or later the story is definitely going to be out there either way just like their “story” on me is out there. And there it will remain forever for when we delete things they’re never really deleted. I’m going to spread it like wildfire on as many sites as I can that may be available at the time, reducing the chances of it not being publicly and easily accessible somewhere even if some sites take it down. We’ll either kill ourselves together someday or I’ll kill myself alone because he died unexpectedly and I’ll launch it before this happens, or I’ll simply schedule it. I’ll probably schedule it at some point regardless for a date that we’ll both definitely be gone in case we’re both suddenly killed in a car crash or something. No way I’m going to live till I’m 85 or 90 so I might do it for that time. It just depends. It’s too soon to make any plans as far as that goes but it will definitely be out there someday unless we’re both suddenly killed in a car accident or a meteorite falls on our heads today.

Still watching the Forensic Files and still not understanding why they don’t keep rapists in jail forever. Better yet, why they don’t kill them? They’re not changeable, redeemable, or curable in any way. No rapist could possibly be set free after doing jail time and expected not to rape again unless they either become disabled or a would-be victim stops them. So why do we let them return to society just to repeat their crimes and oftentimes even worse when they graduate to murder? Just do the right thing, for God’s sake, and kill the bastards!

I’m worried about Aly right now because she and Jase are fighting. If they break up, she won’t be coming out here. There’s no way she can afford an apartment of her own or to travel anywhere given how much debt she says she’s in. Well, I hope for her sake that they’re able to move on. Especially now that they’re getting older. He’s all upset because a childhood friend of his committed suicide and he’s pushing Aly away, who’s sleeping in the guest room. Not a very great way to handle things. I know you can’t make people talk and that they have to be given some space at times and be allowed to open up on their own terms when they’re ready to, but that just doesn’t seem like a very nice guy to do something like that.