Got up in the afternoon to what’s been an incredibly windy day so far. Tom and I both took a walk down to the lake and fed the ducks, but I don’t know if I want to do that anymore. They got a little aggressive with us today. So much for thinking they weren’t like pigeons, but these things had no patience at all. My favorite duck ran right up to me and grabbed the bread right from my hand. When we would walk they would follow. This time there seemed to be a lot more ducks. The last two times I was there, there were maybe only about 20 ducks. This time it seems there were 50 ducks. We didn’t stay too long. The wind made the 68° temperature seem a lot cooler than it was.

Because I was stupid enough to stop my nasal spray, my allergies were bad yesterday. Not so bad that I had a runny nose, but because I did sneeze quite a bit, today my diaphragm muscles are sore. Because of that, that is why I chose to walk today instead of doing strength-training exercises that could aggravate it.

After doing some research we chose a female doctor in the area who also deals with internal medicine. She’s 55 years old and she has a lot of good reviews. She also practices close to home so tomorrow we’re going to call and make an appointment for me to get in and see her.

I hope nothing’s wrong with me but at the same time, I know that one cup of coffee shouldn’t put half a pound on the person either. It would be nice if they could find something and fix it so that I could get proper results from exercising and dieting. In the end, I have a feeling I’m going to be forced to choose between either being hungry and staying where I’m at, or not being hungry and gaining weight to the point that I lose my mobility. The thing is that I’m not eligible for a lap band or anything like that because I’m not technically obese; I’m just fat. I hope I don’t have to gain another 50 pounds in order to be able to get anything done that’s really effective and long-term.

My main reason for going to this doctor is for a referral to an otologist. The not being able to lose more than a few pounds will be a secondary thing.

While it’s not a big worry, a part of me worries that since there’s no chance of him being laid off anytime soon, something else will happen to drain our money, like maybe health issues or things breaking like crazy and aren’t under warranty but that need to be fixed. As it is Tom’s computer seems to have lost its mind and he’s dealing with that. At first he thought it was something about Firefox that was messing it up but then he discovered that it had to do with the computer itself. I guess that’s just how I am, though. I worry when things are rough and I worry when things are just fine.