Andy believed that when we think of someone we know, they somehow sense it and think of us in return. I don’t know why, but for some reason, Dr. A has been on my mind and I wonder if it’s because it’s getting close to my appointment. Probably so. I even dreamed of her last night. Instead of going to a building in a nice area to see her and then being brought into the exam room by the nurse, I either walked or took a bus to a small dumpy building in a seedy section of town. Once I entered the exam room, she was already present and talking to one of her staff. I sat in the chair by her desk and waited for them to finish. When the person she was talking to left the room, I noticed her nails and said, “Oh, colors”, referring to her unusually colorful nails.

Then her nails grew an inch in two seconds and I asked her if it was hard to do things with nails that long. She said it wasn’t really.

Our forearms rested on her desk, fingertips touching, and I moved my hand away because it felt a bit weird and I didn’t want her to feel weird either.

Anyway, I wonder if I’ve been popping into her mind at all since she’s been popping into mine? If that’s the case, then I should be on Dr. O’s mind as well.

I don’t hear much of the freeway tonight but as usual, I can’t even go an hour, if even that, without hearing a plane. I still don’t understand why we suddenly have all these commercials flying over us like we have these last few months. Go fly over someone else’s head!

Yesterday I spent at least half of the day absolutely freezing. I’d be bundled up and under the covers as well but still freezing my ass off. I wasn’t anxious but I felt myself getting a little bored and depressed and the hip pain I had didn’t help either.

Today I don’t have pain yet and made sure to walk a half-hour, and will probably walk more later, just in case it has anything to do with not being mobile enough. Thank God for deserts just in case it has to do with the weather. If it is arthritis and the weather has been a factor, then Florida may be out of the question. I sure hope not!

No intense cold feelings yet today. Just a little fatigue. I wonder if the intense cold could be from the flu shot but it’s been since the first since I got the shot, and I didn’t feel cold 2 days ago. I really do seem to have bipolar health. This means that since I feel okay today I’ll probably feel like shit physically and emotionally tomorrow. It wouldn’t surprise me if I was in for pain later on toward the end of my day but I sure hope not.

Still not sleeping as well as I’d like. Because I wake up in the middle of my sleep and am not able to fall back asleep right away, it causes me to end up sleeping later than usual. Tomorrow he’s probably going to have to wake me up at 3:15 because I’m not sure I’ll be up before then for my 4:00 lab appointment. I can just imagine how shitty my numbers will be, too. No point in continuing with the raw ACV shots if it doesn’t turn out to help my cholesterol much. Statins are probably the only way I can get it under control but I’m not brave enough to go that route just yet. I would still prefer to wait until he’s retired and home all the time.

When I woke up in the middle of my sleep I had a bit of hip pain so I took Ibuprofen. I’ve got to remember to stop eating after 4 a.m. as this is a fasting lab because of the lipid panel. I’ll probably take some Benadryl before bed, though, to help lessen my chance of waking up too soon. Grateful for my sleeping earbuds so I don’t have to deal with the fucking traffic.

I was surprised when I read that middle age is considered between 45 and 65. I thought it was more like 35 to 55, maybe 60, but then we are living longer these days. Knowing how unlucky the number 4 is, I dread my next birthday as well as any year with the number 4 in it! Hate that fucking number. It’s no wonder so much of my life has sucked since I was born on the 4th. On the other hand, Alyssa sure seems to have it great for having a 4 in her birthdate as well.