Right now I’m waiting for it to cool down another 10° so I can go out for a quick run. In some ways, this climate is worse for outdoor exercising than Oregon was. It rains more here and it gets hotter. It might actually be easier to run through snow and ice, not that I would ever want to live in such a cold, snowy climate ever again.

We went swimming before 9 PM last night and the water was disappointingly chilly. There were half a dozen people there too, but all adults.

It was a surprisingly quiet Sunday. We did some things around the house and we also went to Raley’s.

I thought the washer hose was clogged but when Tom went to check it out he said there was hardly anything there.

He sprayed the outside of the house because these big fat creepy-looking spiders have been showing up in here.

Tomorrow will be my last pill skip until after the lab unless I have any trouble before then. I’m actually starting to feel a little off and I’m not sure if it’s PMS or peri, but it’s kind of like I’m borderline to being borderline. I wish I would get anxious when I wasn’t taking enough thyroid medication to be that way, and I wish I could be proven wrong about the medication being the main culprit, but there’s just no way. Even if I were to learn that it was the other way around, that wouldn’t mean I could start taking the medication every day, month after month, because they would only feed off each other. I still think that if I’m ever going to be able to handle this dose indefinitely it’s going to have to wait until I hit menopause.

But when will that be? Well, I’m five days late for my period but I still think I’ll get one in August or September. I just hope I’m not ragging at the GYN. I’ll plug it up if I have to, though.

Been the same weight for three days in a row and I can pretty much guarantee that this is it. 1500 calories will only lose me a couple of pounds at this age. But just like I’m not going to put myself out with the medication just to give the doctor better numbers, I’m not going to put myself out to see better numbers on the scale either. I would probably have to go down to 1200 calories to get down to 135 and then 1000 calories to get down to 120. Not going to happen.

I’m a little worried about my blood pressure which has been high again. Whenever I get that funny sensation in my head when I stand up, and whenever I feel those “neck knockers” when I’m lying down, I know it’s up. I don’t understand why I have spells where it’s elevated. Tom thinks it’s just stress and that it will go back down. The only thing is that this tends to be a precursor to anxiety, but hopefully I’ll stay calm.

Two nights ago I dreamed I was in Bob and Virginia’s house, only it looked different as most people’s houses do in my dreams. They had a large dark-haired male doll that they said they got seven years ago.

I also went into another room to get something and passed by a table in the corner. I stopped to study how it was decorated and I liked the style and the neatness of it. I liked how it wasn’t cluttered, too.

Last night I dreamed a really strange dream but I’m not sure if it was something I saw in a movie or if the woman in it was actually me. There was something about a woman who had been held in some guy’s cellar that finally managed to get upstairs and out of the house. She was screaming at people on the street for help as the guy started to come after her.

Then I was threatening some guy. Not sure if it was the same one or not, which is why I don’t know if someone else was involved in the dream, but Tom was there. I’m not even sure what the threat was about, but the guy didn’t seem worried. He actually seemed a bit amused.