The planes have been going crazy since getting up at 10 a.m. In the first half-hour of being up, I had to have heard five or six planes. This isn’t their usual time to be this active and noticeable. Wonder when it’s going to be a 24-hour thing with them. Last night it was the helicopters and small planes to get on my nerves. I still don’t get why I don’t get used to noise. It’s all I’ve known for the last 30 years or so. Maybe it’s because I wasn’t raised with it?

I woke up with a headache and my ear still feels a bit weird.

Replaced most of the fish’s water today and helped Tom make mashed potatoes and then cooked him a frozen pizza. I only had a few bites of pizza and none of the mashed potatoes because they aren’t very good for LS and anxiety. I’m coming up on 3 months without anxiety, except for the time I overdid the anxiety foods and saw my last round of numbers.

Tom and I were talking about how you can have a slow metabolism even if your thyroid is fine. Tom has had a normal thyroid but an incredibly slow metabolism all his life which is part of why he has such a low HR. He would have to have 1200 calories to lose weight but 800 would be even better, he says. The only reason he was thin when he was young was that he didn’t eat. His only meal of the day was fast food on his way to work. Not very healthy but definitely enough to keep thin if that’s all you have. He never really kept food in the house.

I might be able to lose on 1200 if I exercised quite a bit but probably not more than a few pounds. I would have to go down between 800-1000 to lose more than a few pounds. I know I should watch my weight and try to lose 20 or 30 lbs for the sake of my health but I still worry about how it may affect how my medication affects me. Being paranoid over that has been a bit of a block for me.

Decided to join MyFitnessPal since it provides a handy tool for monitoring calories, sodium, cholesterol and everything else. Need to spend less time online, though, so I don’t have to hear about food so much, which only makes me hungrier.

The vans were only here half of the day when I last saw them so maybe they aren’t remodeling after all. I’ll find out next week but even if they aren’t, it’s only a matter of days before somebody does something else around here to annoy me.

I was watching a documentary on North Sentinel Island and how the Sentinelese tribe has been uncontacted and independent for 60,000 years. They kill anyone who gets too close to them with one exception and that was only because they were given coconuts, something they really value. Even though modern civilization is as close as 31 miles away, they want nothing to do with it. I can’t imagine not wanting to leave the same old tiny island no matter how beautiful it may be there and never wanting anything to do with outsiders, even just for a little while. Even though I’m not normally very sociable, I’d think I’d be curious as to the world beyond my little sanctuary. I guess that just goes to show how narrow-minded and hateful they are. On the other hand, I can totally see wanting to keep safe and any potential threats out of the picture. Modern technology, agriculture and our way of living aren’t for everybody, I suppose. They don’t even know how to make fires and no one knows what language they speak either. They did seem to know how to escape the 2004 tsunami by running to higher ground.

When looking at some of the pictures of them, there are some things I don’t get like where they’re getting the red paint to paint themselves as they sometimes do for some strange reason. And when I looked at their beaded necklaces, the beads all look pretty consistent in shape and size, almost as if a machine made them.

They’re all in damn good shape, of course, albeit ugly as fuck. They’re super dark and they all look the same. It’s hard to tell the women from the men from a distance and they basically look like hairless gorillas. Not trying to be rude but that’s the best way I can describe them, LOL.

I would guess they bathe in the ocean but I wonder if they drink the same water. I hope not if they also piss and shit in it.

They estimate there are anywhere between 15 and 500 of them and I wonder how they manage not to overpopulate the tiny island since they certainly don’t have birth control and they probably don’t have a clue that the guy needs to either not cum or pull out in order to prevent pregnancy. Or at least to lower the chances.

I’m sure the weather is beautiful there all the time but I would hate to have a medical emergency way out there.

I wonder what they do all day since they have no TVs to watch or books to read. I guess it takes that long to gather food, build huts, bow and arrows.

When I look at the island on Google Maps it looks uninhabited, so they’ve got their huts hidden well in the vegetation unless all the little brownish spots I saw were huts. If it is, then they’ve got a hell of a lot more than 500 people there.

Wonder how many uncontacted people there are? I know there are some in the Amazon.

Had a dream that Christopher Noth presented himself as black and began wearing his hair in pigtails.

Then I dreamed I lost a lot of weight, presumably by starving or close enough. I was looking in the mirror in a brand-new tank dress with bright multi-colored curvy stripes running through it. It had a white background. I wore a headband that matched the exact shade and width of the green stripe in my dress. In another part of that same dream, I was wearing a long lavender spaghetti strap sundress with a gathered bodice and realized I didn’t look fat at all.