Forgot to mention a couple of days ago that after more than a week – yes, that’s how prompt and courteous Cali docs are – the shrink finally returned Tom’s phone call. He told them, “Thanks but no thanks. My wife isn’t crazy. She just needs the right dosage of thyroid medication.” 

Except for the occasional feeling of a lump in my throat I’m 100% back to my old self and we’re 100% sure the levothyroxine was what fucked me up so bad both physically and emotionally. 

Today it was back on the vitamin D. I was slightly nervous, but not too bad. 

Kinda missed posting on my-diary, so I’m bringing it up to date. Already the trolls with bogus email addies are out and about, this last one in German. What was cool was that I understood every word without looking it up, even though it made no sense. Meaning that it would make no sense even if it was in English. Ich bin dein Soldat? I’m their soldier? Really? And I will always have their love and heart as they wait for me? 

LOL, doesn’t sound like any kind of a joke Nane, who’s now vacationing in Turkey, would play on me. Probably just some bored American with a handy translator. 

Grape Tic Tacs don’t taste like grapes at all. I’m not really sure what they taste like, but I’m definitely done with Tic Tacs for a while since the store we usually shop at stopped selling my Strawberry Fields. 

Went to KFC, which the rats and I enjoyed and that’s pretty much it for today. 

Later… 

Ok, I know this sounds crazy but I felt anxious in the throat. You know how sometimes you feel anxiety in a physical sense and not just in an emotional sense and it can be in your chest or other parts of your body? Well, I felt anxiety in my throat, that lump was still there, so I chilled pilled. Also, my pulse was over 100. IDK, sometimes I think Tom’s right in that I’ve coped this long without head pills, but other times I wonder if I should be on something regularly at least until I get the doctor/meds thing worked out so long as it isn’t anything hardcore.