Tom said I could do Nutrisystem if I wanted to but that being back on medication will cause me to lose weight. 

It will? That’s not what happened last time. Last time I didn’t lose till the side effects got to me and made me too sick to eat as much (I have since regained those 5 pounds), I told him. As the doctor herself said, the meds don’t make you lose weight. They just make your body more likely to respond to dieting. Only there’s no way I can stand to have just 1200 calories a day, medication or not, so I don’t expect to ever lose. 

What’s more important is avoiding those nasty side effects. That was a really, really rough 3.5 months. Still feel that damn lump in my throat, though, but find it hard to believe it’s anxiety because why would that be the only symptom I felt? Could be, though. I have a lot on my plate right now. Just the usual schedule stress along with the medication fears. Kinda hope I’m not put back on meds till after Andy leaves. I don’t want to deal with worrying about what side effects I may get while he’s here, or worse, actually having them. The added stress may make lining my schedule up even harder as well. 

One thing that was disturbing was an excerpt from late January that I found in my journal. My memory isn’t all that great right now so I decided to look and see if I mentioned any racy hearts upon first going onto the medication (before they upped my dose and the real nightmare began) and I did mention it racing a little. Oh great. Just great. Right now a little is a lot to me as nervous as I am about that. 

Stumbled across a site that gives sample business cards for free so I designed 10 cards with my email addy and links to my blog, Twitter, Facebook, and Ask account. Don't know who the hell I'd pass these out to, but they’d be cool to have. 

Woman in Nordstrom: Abandons child so she can assault a woman who asks her to quiet her brat down and gets away with it.

Jodi S: Goes to jail for words on paper. 

One more reason to hate God.