Ugh, thought I had 4 more “getups” before Andy arrives but I really have 3. I got up at midnight and would have preferred to get up between 5am - 6am on the day he arrives, but I don’t think I can beat 3am. That was my earliest goal, though, so I can’t complain too much. I’ll just be a little tired come late afternoon, early evening and will have to crash between 7pm - 9pm (unless it’s one of those days I’m up 20 hours). 

It was so nice to take breaks in between my writing yesterday to just sit on our comfortable new couch and watch the rain. Really sick of hearing blowers every single fucking day, though, but this is the time of year you hear that here till the leaves finish falling, rain or shine. 

It hit me as I was falling asleep that I experienced no dizzy spells whatsoever yesterday. And then my bubble burst when I realized I had spent the day under the influence of my lorazepam, so that may’ve had something to do with it. 

What is it with these rats making me think they’re going to die? LOL, Romeo's still hanging in there and doesn’t seem to be suffering in any way. He definitely had a stroke. The only difference is that he’s not wobbly like Sugar, who can’t keep his head still. Sugar’s limbs work well, though, but Romeo's back legs are definitely paralyzed. 

Got my sample business cards with my name, email and blog link. They look so-so. Still not sure what I’ll use them for. They’re not something I’d feel comfortable handing out to people around here. 

My new bike wheel arrived from Germany yesterday. I’d have laughed my ass off if all the instructions were in German, as I told Tom, haha. 

Still working out a half-hour a day and still the same weight (as expected in my case), but loving the way it makes me feel. I work out on weekdays. 

Tom and I were just talking about how self-driving cars should be mainstream in about 20 years. Wow, really could’ve used one of those 30 years ago, not that I could’ve afforded one back then. Still, driving is one of the few fears I’ve never been able to conquer despite the many attempts I’ve made and it would be nice to have either way. Imagine having several boxes of stuff you want to give to a friend or something, but don’t feel like driving over. You could just pack the stuff in the car and send it over to them and then have them send the car back after they unload it! Too fucking cool. 

I’d be a little leery of trusting them at first. Machines make mistakes, sometimes worse than humans. 

Facebook asked for my number if I’d be willing to conduct a phone interview today or tomorrow. Sure, if I’m selected I won’t mind spending a few minutes to tell them how shitty their site is for $25 to spend on Amazon. I’ll gladly tell them I check in an average of just once a day cuz of the way half the features don’t work and never get fixed. Truthfully, though, even if Facebook ran perfectly all the time, I probably still wouldn’t check in much more often because there’s nothing for me to do there. How many times a day do I need to say hello to friends and family? 

As for whether or not the doc’s ignoring me or unaware of my contact attempts… my guess is that she never got any messages, requests or share notifications. Even Alison suspects that’s the case. But a friend of a friend’s did. I have occasionally sent a message to a non-friend (usually asking if they’re related or know such and such a person) that’s gone through, but the big question is: Is Facebook controlling who I contact? Or are they just that screwed up? The fact that they eventually made it so that non-friends' messages got sent to their ‘other’ folder tells me they deliberately do want to make it hard to contact people. Others have bitched about this too, and who the hell lets the same damn glitches go on and on for years? So yeah, Facebook is probably making sure my contact to non-friends isn’t going through but maybe every 1 out of 10 or something like that. 

I know I said I wasn’t going to try to fight for what isn’t meant to be and contact the doctor again, but since Facebook won’t let me contact her, and I don’t know what other site I can go to, I may just let her know what’s up on the health site. My account still exists even though I don’t use that medical group anymore, so maybe after the New Year I can leave a quick message saying: 

Please email me at your earliest convenience. Nothing’s wrong and there’s no hurry. I’d just like to ask you a few questions and didn’t feel this was the appropriate place to do so. Facebook has been glitchy and I have been unable to contact you there.