We’re on for one more day of rain today, then sunshine and temps in the 60s. Wind-whipped rain is making sure that no one can come out to play today… haha. Really glad it’ll be clear for Andy who is leaving for Oakland right about now. He’ll be spending the night with a friend in San Francisco, then we’ll pick him up in Sacramento tomorrow afternoon. If I don’t post any entries on Sunday and Monday, you’ll know why. 

I’m ahead with NaNoWriMo so I can take a few days off and not worry about falling behind. I decided to rewrite another story that I started a year or so ago but never finished. 

Feeling the best I’ve felt both physically and emotionally in days now that the stress of meeting schedules and all that is easing up. It is so nice to finally be able to relax and be happy. I’m so excited about seeing Andy for the first time in 15 years! 

Yesterday I wasn’t dizzy, tired, or experiencing a racing heart, but I sure had that feeling of there being a lump in my throat. Wish I could know for sure that it’s anxiety and not my thyroid enlarging as that may help ease that symptom if I did know it was just stress. I guess it is, for as Tom pointed out, it wouldn’t come and go if it was the thyroid, a doctor just felt it, and it hasn’t even been a year since my last ultrasound. 

I’m not even going to think of how I gotta go back on my meds in a few days. Not now anyway! 

Later… 

It seems that every time something good comes my sister’s way, something not so good soon follows. Just when they’re adjusting to their new lives in Florida, Tammy gets hit while on the road. She’s sore from the seatbelt, she told me, and beyond upset. I don’t blame her! Especially since she just started a new job. Don’t know who’s at fault, but that doesn’t matter. What matters is that she’s alive! 

She’s going to have to get a new car from the insurance money since the car was totaled. Hopefully, it will be enough to get something reliable, even if it may not be ideal and she may be a bit tight for a few months till she gets a few paychecks. But I have confidence that she will! Mark’s working too, so I just learned. He retired from his regular job in CT but has had a home-based remodeling business for many years. I would guess that he’ll eventually make more money at that in FL than in CT because the climate is better there. As selfish as it may sound, I just hope she doesn’t ask us for money. 

Anyway, she will leave me more details in a message cuz I don’t know much more than what little she’s told me so far. I told her no hurry, understanding she's upset and sore right now. 

Accidental shootings of ANY kind are always tragic, but I'm REALLY sick of only hearing about it if the person was black. Whites are abused and killed by the police, too! MUCH more so than non-whites because there are more whites than blacks. The only difference is that when you're white no one cares. 

As soon as I saw a headline trending on Facebook about another shooting in NY, I KNEW the person had to be black. They wouldn’t bother to report it if a white person was accidentally shot. So what if they’re BOTH equally tragic. 

I think that no matter how blacks are treated, they will always, always find a way to cry racism. There’s just no appeasing some people.