My fucking pits are irritated from shaving and I’m so fucking stupid at times! I held off eating for 4 hours for nothing last night. Instead of going for my meds and then waiting another half hour before eating, what did this stupid idiot do? She went straight for the food! Took my pill anyway although most, if not all of it, was absorbed by the big bowl of Cheerios I had. No need to worry if this dose is going to race my heart, LOL, but still, how could I have been so damn stupid??? With labs getting closer, I can’t afford to skip now unless the anxiety picks up.

My weight’s gone into “reset mode” as expected (by retaining water and being constipated, mostly by the latter) and the ACV definitely does nothing for my skin. I was itching and burning yesterday more than usual. Enough to take a baby Benadryl. The rash is pretty much now all over my body; it’s just more noticeable in moist areas. If it doesn’t lower my cholesterol, I’ll stop the ACV shots.

For quite a while now, my body goes into reset mode at 154 lbs. and will start dropping at 157 lbs. as long as I don’t eat more than usual. Despite the extra weight bogging me down and making me less flexible, it’s kind of neat to know my body will automatically hold its weight no matter what I do and that I can count on this so I don’t have to worry about Halloween of 2015 all over again. I still fear losing a significant amount of weight!

Last night I dreamed that the rats were out, and the house actually looked like our house for once. I was handing Burke some food who was behind the couch. Then I realized I’d forgotten to close the laundry room and bedroom doors as Tom was trying to coax Simon from under the dryer, which he couldn’t fit under in real life.

The scary dream was that the cops kept trying to call and I was pissed that I listened to their voice message, figuring they had some way of knowing whether or not their message was picked up. I told myself to ignore it but I was nervous at the thought of knowing that if they could find out my number, they could easily find out where I live.

That loud car came to visit a little while ago and now it’s leaving. Please tell me they’re not moving back in!

Later…

The lightheadedness was getting better but now it’s picking up again and I also have a headache bad enough to take a couple of ibuprofen for.

Twice a year we do a huge Amazon order both for fun and for necessities, costing around $500 to $600. We just made our summer order which consists of the following:

A cart for the 3D printer, a small desk (Tom’s redesigning his office), tree spikes and some other electronics/computer-related stuff.

Decided to wait on trying any of the anti-anxiety remedies until I talk to whatever doctor I’m going to be seeing.

Tried the rash ointment which came today. It’s too soon to judge it, but anyway, we’re also getting:

An air filter for the small air cleaner.

A flavored coffee K-cup sampler pack.

My favorite flavor of Tic Tacs that I can’t find anywhere around here anymore, Strawberry Fields.

Coffee & Tea Lip balm pack with the tasty flavors of Caramel Macchiato, Pumpkin Spice Latte, Cinnamon Chai Latte, Mocha Frappe, Mandarin Mint Tea, Green Tea Lemonade, Watermelon Lemonade, and Pomegranate Iced Tea.

6 nice new, stylish grocery bags.

The forest mural for the hall and the elephant mural for the living room.