Checking in on a very lightheaded day after taking my meds. Funny how I skipped yesterday because I was anxious the day before and wasn’t as lightheaded. Still think this lightheadedness is more the meds than my ears or anything else. Just like with the anxiety.

The good news is that Tom has recovered some of his lost hearing, but we still don’t know what caused it in the first place. He was at work and in the middle of the day on Friday when he went completely deaf in his right ear. It happened instantaneously and not slowly. He quickly looked up the symptom to make sure it wasn’t a symptom of a heart attack or a stroke or anything like that.

After being undecided as far as what to do about doctors, I decided that since he has to make an appointment for himself anyway for the week he’s off, he might as well see if we can both get in. If not, I’ll return to Dr. A. I just don’t think she’s going to help me. I don’t know that this one is either, but I figured I would make one last-ditch effort to try to help myself. And hope to hell nothing up there could be cruel enough to have dealt me a disease it knew I couldn’t treat by allowing me to be too sensitive to the treatment available.

His doctor, Dr. F, isn’t Muslim like from Iran or Iraq but Indian instead. I don’t care as long as he can help me. If he can’t, I at least have a doctor closer to home.

He has good reviews except for one two-star review in regards to him not following up as soon as he should have.

So we’re going to do what we didn’t do yesterday. We did go grocery shopping yesterday but that’s about it. Today we have to bomb since the spiders are alive and kicking at this time of year. We’ll go to Denny’s and do a little shopping while we need to be out of the house.

I don’t know why I didn’t think to do this before but I started to use the Gold Bond powder more aggressively and that has caused the red splotches down below to disappear completely and the rash on my left armpit to diminish a lot. So maybe that will keep it from spreading. It will return after I stop using it but this might be the quickest way to get it to back off if only temporarily. I just don’t want to take steroids because they’re only a temporary fix with lots of side effects.

Last night I dreamed I was making this couple’s bed. There was a fancy design on the bedspread and the husband asked the wife if she went shopping at some place before they began chatting in intimate tones. They said something about “sex on fire” and I said that they sold comforters with pictures of fire on them.

Then I dreamed I had just stepped into a crowded restaurant when I overheard some guy begin to gossip about me. I then hurried into this tiny closet when I realized I was naked, even though I’d already been seen. I went over in my mind how to get out of there unseen so I could get some clothes on. Once I did that, I was determined to confront the guy and maybe even harm him.