Today I’m kind of pissed off at Tom’s doctor and I’m glad I didn’t see him. Actually, I’m not kind of pissed, I am pissed. The fucking cock won’t see him for two weeks and was advised by his staff to go to urgent care and wouldn’t even tell him where it was. I just called our medical group, told them where we live, and she said to go to San Juan’s MD Stat in Citrus Heights. But when I looked it up it said it’s in Fair Oaks. Either way, I Skyped the info to Tom.

He feels pretty sure his ear is infected and while we would like for him to go to urgent care, he doesn’t exactly have time to wait for 12 hours to be told to follow up with a doctor that doesn’t have any regular appointments until August. Any decent doctor should be able to get you in within a week. All of mine have except for the first endo I had that told me to come in that day or she couldn’t see me for 5 months, which was bullshit.

If anything happens to Tom along the way, that’s his doctor’s ass. Maybe he can switch to my doctor who is good with everything but those affected in the wrong way by thyroid medication. She’s further away, though.

Tammy’s back home recovering. I thought she was released days ago. She had a huge infection of her own. Of course she didn’t ask about us. Even though I’m sure she’s reading my journal, it still would be nice. She did say she loved the picture I colored for her.

I’m still lightheaded on and off but today I feel better emotionally than I did yesterday. I decided not to skip my meds today but to cut the waiting time out. I realize that if these are indeed side effects from the meds, cutting the time may absorb its beneficial effects, but not the side effects. Like I said, I’ve been beating my head in the wall trying to figure out the same shit for years now. Like most things, I can narrow it down to a handful of culprits, but can never isolate them for sure or know exactly what to do about them. Having Sleepytime Detox tea and using Gold Bond powder seems to help with my anxiety and rash the most, so maybe I need to use them more regularly.

I submitted a short dialogue to Duolingo Stories but may not know for a few weeks if it’s going to be chosen. Thinking it may help my chances, I republished my books on Amazon even though I’m going to continue to get ripped off. It’s sad that my publishers no longer care about their authors. I’ll pull them off their shelves again soon.

The days are nice, but the nights have been chilly. We went walking for 10 minutes and Tom was almost sorry he packed away his jacket. When we got back, since it was early enough for the streets to be dead but dark enough that I could see headlights approaching, I made 4 rounds around the circle on my new bike. It’s so much fun! I’ve been adding a round every day and I’m already getting back into biking shape. I can feel it in my legs.

I’m more determined to mix it up… walking, running, strength training, stretching, biking, and in another month or so, swimming. You really do work different muscles doing different types of exercise and it’s good for those days that you want to do strenuous or time-consuming tasks.

Last night I had a rather hilarious dream. Maliheh married my first childhood friend Jenny, the one who dumped me in my early twenties for having “too many” problems, but I guess the marriage didn’t last long. Oh, LOL, it wouldn’t, as straight as Jenny was. They’re both bossy little control freaks. It was still kind of funny for a dream.

I know I had some other dream about Maliheh that was bad but I can’t remember it. I just hope the one about me spotting was just a dream! It was a good-sized spot, too. :-(

In another dream, I was walking down a residential street. I glanced down a side street to see my cousin Norma who waved to me and told me I looked great. Then, strangely enough, when I was coming back up the street I was in an office chair that seemed to automatically wheel itself.