Argh! Had it with the Fitbit issues! The website was messed up yesterday and now their app is too. Let me guess, Fitbit’s unnecessarily revamping their site so they can confuse users with having to do things in new ways than what they’re used to hence inviting bugs and other problems when the old way worked just fine.

Going to take a break from them for a while. I’m really not getting that much out of them anyway. It’s not like weight loss is an option for me, although it is interesting to check my HR and sleep at times. If anything, it’s been a great way to tell the time when I wake up during my sleep because I’m too blind to see the digital clock which was too damn bright anyway.

Texas and Mississippi are being so fucking stupid. This isn’t the first time people have been stupid by giving up and throwing in the towel simply because they’re running out of patience with having to put up with wearing masks. No one should stop wearing a mask until they’ve been vaccinated for a while. Fine, though. Let ‘em kill each other. We’re going to be smart and keep our masks on and not go out unnecessarily!

Now for the bad news and that’s that I now have my answer as far as the magnesium helping goes, and it’s just the answer I expected too. I was a little on edge yesterday for a couple of hours and now I’m worried again. I’m worried about how I’ll feel toward the end of my day and that this is the start of another long, kick-ass anxiety spell. I took the magnesium once I started to feel a little wound up, but it didn’t have the calming effect on me it had the first few times I took it.

Then I made a discovery. Not all magnesium is the same. There are half a dozen different forms. So I looked at the bottles and the huge capsules we have and found taurate, malate, and one other thing in it. The gummies I got are citrate.

I don’t know if my doctor would know about this sort of thing, but I’ll ask her which form and dose she thinks is best for me or if she recommends something else. According to what I read, they can’t say for sure which form is best for anxiety, but studies conducted suggest there is a connection to magnesium easing anxiety when oxide and lactate were used. I think later on, I’ll take one of each.

Decided to stop the statins again because it’s a bit of a coincidence that the day after I restart them, I get wound up. Could be just a coincidence along with the foot cramps I had the night I took them, but why take chances unnecessarily? I still don’t even know if I want to take statins because I don’t believe I’ll have a heart attack or a stroke anytime soon. And again, I don’t want longevity. Not with a husband older than me, not with the way men don’t live as long as women, and not with the fact that I’ve lived long enough as it is. I know so many people wish they could live forever but what the fuck would I do with myself for that long??? It’s enough of a challenge some days trying to figure out how to fill my time and I’m not even in my 60s yet.

Not as hungry today since I’m starting to get used to my new eating schedule, but I was stuck yesterday. My body always does that as a way of rebelling against weight loss, so I went down two pounds and then back up one. That’s okay because I know I’m at least not going to break any records this way.