I woke up 40 minutes ago. I feel good, too. I didn’t wake up wheezing like I did the night before last. I had 5 messages on my machine when I got up.

One from dad, who says I can expect a package from UPS with a couple of cartons of cigarettes.

Yes!! He said he knows I probably do not smoke the brand he’s sending, but who cares? It saves me an awful lot of money that I now can use towards other stuff.

He says there’s other stuff in the package but he didn’t say what. I love packages. It’s only a bummer when the clothes are too big and not my style. Or I’m sent something I absolutely can’t stand or can’t use or already have.

Fran was the second message.

The other 3 were from Cassandra who wants to move today’s appointment up earlier in the day. She said she’ll call me this morning.

Hope all is well with Andy who just started work at another Denny’s. I still have to finish his bracelet and send him a letter while I’m at it. I have another letter ready to go out to Fran.

Tonight Kim and I are going to make all kinds of bows with this bow-making thing she has.

Now, to write about the other thing I forgot to mention about CC. Like I did mention, about 4 nights ago I was miserably depressed. That night, however, turned into a pretty amusing night. I spoke to a guy named Bill who told me they all had me and Andy figured out months ago. Even though it is inappropriate, they said, and that we can’t do it again, they said it was very well done. Bill and Tammy said it was creative putting together the plot and the acting ability. When I asked Bill if he knew about the edits, he said no. I played him quick bits and pieces so he could get an idea. Then he said I ought to check into ways I can use my taping knowledge. I jokingly came out and said, “Yeah, you guys tape yourselves singing, laughing or whatever, send me that tape plus a blank with a self-addressed stamped envelope. You send the tools; I’ll do the work since I have no money. Then I’ll edit you and send you back the original (the master) and the edits.” So, he definitely seemed very interested and is gonna discuss this with everyone after Christmas. That’s really cool to be editing for the CC. So, Bill said he was glad I called back and that it was a very positive talk.

The next night I spoke to Tammy who had spoken with Bill about our talk and also the taping. She too said she likes to hear me happier and said I was bright and had a lot to offer even over the phone. Also, I had a great sense of humor, she said. As I discussed this all with Cassandra last Saturday, it’s one thing to have goals but it’s another to not be able to act on them. I told her that until I move into a subsidized place with a bus line, there’s not much I can do. When I have the extra money and transportation, I’ll check into some of the ideas I have come up with as well as other people’s suggestions.

Yesterday I spoke briefly with Sally and Jill. Even though they’re swamped with finals, we all really do want to meet. They really really do seem so nice, honest and sincere. Both have nice speaking voices and are not butchy at all. If I can’t have gorgeous, I hope and pray to God that they’re so-so and not pitifully ugly.