My lesson of the day: Eyeshadow “stickers” that are really temp tats are a waste of money. First I was too blind to apply them since I couldn’t do it with my glasses on, then I realized they were a bit big, even though my eyes are kind of big. But it wasn’t a total waste in the end because they make good “rings.” Even toe rings. I gotta laugh when I imagine Nane’s reaction to seeing my rainbow ring on my index finger. Her BF may be stable and “normal” and all things good, but her cyber GF is a definite loon, haha.

I realize, though, that I should lay off the “young” and colorful stuff wanting to get into an adult community. They only need to know I’m over 45. They don’t need to know I’m crazy. :)

I also got the 2 pounds of acrylic fuchsia rocks today for my large bamboo, but it’s not quite enough. I need 1 more pound. So I got a pound of clear rocks (same brand) to mix in with the fuchsia rocks. Two pounds is still enough but I think it would look better with the vase filled more than it is.

Wonder when they’re going to reach a verdict in the Jodi Arias case. I also wonder how high-profile cases can expect to be tried fairly with the way the internet is today. The jurors certainly must see all the comments, theories and opinions people have on the case. What was funny was that the Arizona PD says they’re aware that she’s dictating tweets from jail but can’t do anything about it. LOL, it’s nice to see them rendered powerless for once! Yet they “thought” they could try to get me for having copies of my old Blogger blog posts auto-sent privately to an individual. Nice try, buddies, though I still doubt that was a real cop. If it was, well, I sure showed them this time around just who’s NOT going to be railroaded. :)

Anyway, I think she’s guilty. If half of what I read is true, then she wasn’t an abused GF acting in self-defense. She was a jealous monster who killed out of rage and revenge.

Later…

My pork chops came out too dry. Why am I such a shitty cook? They sure tasted good, though. Next time I’ll wet them and maybe add a touch of margarine to them before I coat them with Shake-n-Bake.

Another Jodi juror gets dismissed, this one for health reasons, unlike the last one who was dismissed for saying something biased. How could they not be biased with all the info on the net these days??? I can just imagine the cyber media frenzy my own case would’ve made had the net been what it is today, all for a fabricated letter and all because the “victim” wasn’t white. I STILL can’t believe it got the kind of attention a celebrity or a murder case gets, but yeah, I can easily see it being on the net as much as the Jodi Arias case.

Someone once asked me if I wished I’d actually written the damn letter so I could say I’d have at least gotten what I deserved, and I said no. No letter, no matter what it may say, is worth 6 months in jail. I sometimes wish I’d beaten the living crap out of some folks at times, though.

I wonder why my blogs have been getting so much attention lately. There’s been a lot of visitors that spend hours in it, and yes, I can tell they’re not BOTs. Just what am I saying that’s so damn interesting, though? LOL, I’ve been getting friend requests up the ass, but I’m really not open to more friends these days. I have enough.

Had another negative money dream that was a little disturbing, though nothing too worrisome. In the dream, Nancy, one of my meanest cellies, told me she created a bank account in my name and had 2K of our money transferred to it to use as she saw fit. I was worried about not only how I’d get the money back, but also how I’d prove that I was the real Jodi S.

When I lift the roof of the rats’ cage, Sugar now has a way of standing straight up and giving me a “hug.” It’s so damn cute.

Andy thinks he saw Brenda in Springfield and that she saw and recognized him too, though he had no desire to talk to her. That’s how I feel about a lot of people I once knew. No hard feelings, but I wouldn’t care to associate with them these days.

He said Brenda looked the same only older. Same old, sad, worn-out face. I wonder if she ever kicked the crack and got custody of her kids. Brenda wasn’t a bad person, just a loser. She had no backbone of her own and chose to try to drown her problems with drugs. Only I was too naïve to see it at first back in 1990 when we met.

Imagine if she knew I was a published author who spent 12 years in Arizona, 3 in Oregon, and 6 in Cali and was married to a guy, hahaha. She’d probably think I gave up on women and settled. Oh, I gave up on women, all right. But SHE was the settlement, not Tom. She’s one of the few who taught me that being alone was better than settling. Brenda wasn’t ugly, but there was no real spark there either. She was way more attracted to me than I was to her. It always, always seems that way with women. I could always forget about those I was hot for, but I was welcome to an unlimited supply of uglies and crazies or women who were just so-so. Kind of insulting, if you ask me. Makes me feel like I’m ugly, too. Well, I wasn’t then, but I sure am now. Fat, old and ugly for sure. Still, how did one who danced in T&A bars that don’t take just anybody end up with as much rejection as she did??? I could’ve had plenty of guys, but the women treated me like I was Tracy or Bonny kind of ugly.

Molly’s friends have been a nightmare for Alison. She’s blocked 6 of them so far, trying to get her to think Molly’s in this oh-so-horrible place because she’s not allowed online. They even restrict her cell phone usage. Finally, Aly got fed up and emailed Marbridge. I’m surprised Marbridge doesn’t monitor their online activity. These sickos are in their custody, so they should be responsible for what they do. Personally, I don’t think anyone who’s fucked in the head should have online access. Seriously, Marbridge needs to remember why these nutjobs are there in the first place and use some common sense.

Tom said that part of what a group home does is teach the people how to get along in the world and that it takes a long time to “program” them. I say you can’t teach an old dog new tricks, and while this may sound like a very cruel and insensitive thing to say, I think they should all be lined up and shot dead. They’re nothing but a waste of space on earth and a menace to society. I don’t know if Molly is the way she is due to something traumatic or if she was just born that way, but that’s no excuse and I know she’ll never change. I was abused as a kid too, yet I don’t go around stalking people and trying to make people like me. I give up on those who give up on me, and if I’m not good enough for you, you’re not good enough for me. It’s ok to miss someone or to wish they liked you as much as you like them, but it’s not ok to try to force them to do anything they don’t want to do.

Meanwhile, I’m enjoying every moment that she’s forbidden from going online because I know it’s only a matter of time before she’s back, following us from site to site, using her friends to reach out to us, and reaching out to our friends. That’s why I try to hide them as best I can on Facebook. Really wish people would help protect themselves by not “liking” my cover photos. I can’t make those private.

Funny how the strange/rude questions on Ask stop the day Molly’s removed from cyberspace. Again I have to wonder if she’s a little smarter than I gave her credit for. I really thought most of that shit was coming from Kim. Either way, it’s wonderful not having either troll in my life… until they once again return to haunt me.