Last night OD was running really slow but tonight it seems a bit snappier. 28 days left! No way I’m going to pay for that site. I like PB way better mostly for its simplicity and the way we can have multiple books. I don’t expect to ever have the search feature I’d like or to be able to customize backgrounds or anything like that, but that is definitely my preferred platform these days.

The teenager who read my diary on YouTube contacted me to say that the first one (she did a series of three videos) now has over 1000 views. Good for her. :-)

Anyway, my book Evil Amongst the Evergreens has now been fully re-edited, redesigned and republished. Six books published and counting! Couldn’t resist sending Maliheh a copy… WITH her name. No reply, of course, not that I have any way to know if she’s getting my messages or not. One of the accounts was taken over but the message didn’t bounce so she must have recovered it.

I’ve got mild anxiety in my chest right now probably because I splurged on sugar today.

No stomach pain today. The old lady in Texas said that when they say severe they mean it and that there’s no doubt about it. She’s had it before. Another person suggested uterine fibroids, but I would’ve thought the pain was too high up for that. It’s funny because she’s now following me just to see what happens with that, LOL. I think she is somewhere in the southeast.

Tom and I were talking about what an idiot Trump is. I see his wanting to reform immigration and keep dangerous cultures out (though Tom insists Muslims are like anyone else and it’s just a small group of them that are crazy). Not sure I agree with that but that’s okay. We don’t have to agree on everything. I agree, however, that he really should ignore Kim’s childish and immature taunts. When we feed the trolls, we stoop to their level. Trolls hate being ignored. Since he’s thousands of miles away, I really think it would be best if Trumpty Dumpty stopped giving Kim the negative attention he so obviously craves.

While I wasn’t being euthanized in my dreams last night, I seemed to be very lonely and depressed, living alone in some apartment with absolutely nothing. No computer, no TV, no radio, no nothing. All I did was lay in bed depressed. It seems I did get up to look out the window, though, and I must have been several floors up because I was looking down at a stormy sea. It seemed to be nighttime, too

Then I beat up Jenny C for some reason in another dream.

Later…

Palma doesn’t appear to have checked in for over a month and her friend count is the same. Don’t know if she hasn’t been on or if she just hasn’t seen my message, but I just tagged and friend-requested her. Would be surprised if I ever heard from her, though. Maybe she’ll even block me like Scot did, but I see her more as the ignoring type than the blocking type if she remembers me, and I think she will.

I also left Stacey a message and was surprised at how self-conscious I felt when I did it. My heart even raced a bit. It was nice to hear her voice again. Do I think she’ll reply on Facebook or by phone? I’d say there’s a 60% chance she’ll leave me a voice message, a 40% chance she won’t do anything.

When Tom leaves I’ve got a lot of catching up to do as far as my voice blog goes. I haven’t done any posts on Bubbly since Friday. I don’t usually do it on weekends.

My dreams told me that I was done with periods but I’ll believe it when I see it. I skipped my meds today because I felt a little anxious yesterday. It’s a good thing I did too, because I can still feel very slight traces of it.

They really are a bunch of idiots at Amazon. I decided to tell them that I wasn’t receiving reviews and they asked for a screenshot of the reviews in question. Stupid idiots.

We’re going to the IHOP in the wee hours of the morning before he goes to work. I’m sure the music will be blasting there too, but at least it will drown out his eating sounds I never cared to hear. I just hope there are no little kids because nothing drowns them out.

We talked about getting a wheelchair for the doll so I could at least have her in whatever room I wanted her in and I could hide her easily that way as well. But the more I think about it the more I don’t think it’s necessary because no matter how I try to lift her I simply can’t do any more than maneuvering her back and forth between a sitting and a lying position. I can’t even transfer her from the couch to the footstool. No way I could transfer her in and out of a wheelchair and onto a bed, couch or whatever. Whenever I want her on the bed I’m going to have to have him put her there. It’s funny because Aly is so sure she can lift 100 pounds if not for long. So could I depending on the way the weight is distributed, the angles, and the length. I really, really don’t think she could lift this doll any easier than I can. If she did I sure would be jealous as well as pissed at myself. Really, I would feel like such a wimp, hahaha. Maybe it’s time to really work my arms double-time on the Bowflex.