Away we go to the beach! Damn, do I need this too. It’s been too long. An ambulance, cop car, and fire truck were at the house next to Toni again as we headed out.

I’m a little tired, but not too bad. Woke up having to pee and then had trouble falling back to sleep. Then I had to have a coughing fit.

Nervous about starting Tirosint and pissed that Doc A told me that it was OK to take Gennev before 4 hours. Galileo says it is very important to wait 4 hours due to magnesium salts absorbing thyroid hormone. I can now see why I was calm but also so exhausted for much of last year. It was never that I got used to the med after all. But if it’s the fillers and binders that’s been the problem - or part of it - can the magnesium also suck up the fillers and binders?

Galileo finally got my records from Doc A, but not from the ENT and Doc D yet. Sure enough, they saw my cholesterol tests and made a Lipidemia case. They asked if I’d be OK with going to the lab since I said I was changing my diet, but as I told them, I doubt that would do me much good since it hasn’t changed that much, and the numbers can’t be much different. I just can’t give up meat. There is cholesterol in almost everything anyway.

The anxiety assessment test was too generalized. “How many days were you anxious the last two weeks?” Well, that varies from week to week though I answered with “several.” We agreed I’d keep them posted and that they’d give me a shrink referral if need be. Although I don’t see what they could do for me at this point. Tom still thinks the anxiety will go away on its own someday. But when? Right now I still feel pretty hopeless and like I’m gonna struggle with it as long as I live.

I thanked Jessie for letting me pour all my health frustrations on her. “That’s what I’m here for,” she said. I could hug her for that!

Being 50 miles from Cape Canaveral, I was surprised Jessie could hear rocket launches, but she said it wasn’t that loud and only lasted for a few seconds. She said it’s a deep sound, but not loud.

I still chat on and off with Kim and Andy, of course. Connecticut Kim sent a message saying COVID is still in her house. Massachusetts Kim lost a neighbor she was close to. She was her healthcare proxy.

Andy admitted he’s always hated health talk because it upsets him. At this point, I don’t hold it against him. I know he can’t help what upsets him so I get it. There are subjects I definitely don’t like discussing like race and religion. He said one of his SILs is undergoing treatment for cancer and while he listens to her describe it, he doesn’t ask questions because it upsets him.

Gotta admit the guy’s kind of funny with his false facts. He admits that while Putin is an asshole and all that, he’s just defending his country.

But Ukraine doesn’t have any nuclear weapons.

He also says that Ukraine is really a dictatorship country and as soon as North Korea has the power to nuke us, they will. Oh, I don’t doubt that they would if they could, but China keeps them in line. They depend on China for things and China depends on the US.

I finally sent a message the other day to the punk who had the loud car at the old place, thanking him for the years of stress and wake-up calls. I also left a message on his mother Melody’s wall. She allows anyone to comment. Neither of them replied, but Melody deleted the comment.

Carolyn told me she ran into her in the store and learned that her husband had a stroke and can’t speak. I immediately felt bad and also thought of how Tom said he wouldn’t attack those that screwed me in the past if he knew he could get away with it because it wouldn’t unscrew me. Well, it would make me feel better when it comes to Tammy, Sarah, and the black bitch but certainly not Melody and her son. Definitely no sense in holding on to past shit like that. They just annoyed me. They didn’t cost me my freedom, a fortune, and a whole shitload of suffering.

Hard to believe Carolyn doesn’t know where they’re living these days, though. I mean, they’re still living right there, aren’t they? Joy’s got their back and where else would they go anyway? Unless they’re in assisted living, where could they go in that area that’s cheaper?

It bugged me how Carolyn said it was very quiet there. That’s great for her, but so typical. Just so fucking typical. But then it can’t be that quiet there, can it? They’re still going to have regular landscaping, planes, loud traffic close to the house, 4-hour trash pickups, projects galore, etc.

They studied the dying brain of an 87-year-old and found that our lives really do flash before us just as people have reported that temporarily died. Does this mean there really is an afterlife as well?

I don’t know why, since I haven’t gained weight, but my new bras are a bit tight so I got some bra extenders. I should have them soon. The side of my left tit has sore spots at times, so I’m guessing it’s from that. Maybe all the working out too. At least it can’t be cancer. Pretty sure early breast cancer doesn’t hurt. Plus I haven’t lost weight.

The beach was gorgeous! On our way back now. It’s good to get there around 9:00 and head back out at lunchtime when it starts getting crowded. It was partly cloudy and breezy too. No one was obnoxious and even the planes and helicopters were at a minimum. It was low tide and the waves were a little higher. It didn’t tickle my feet, though, to walk on the section that had a lot of shells.

The new beach bag was really helpful. Makes it much easier to sort, find and carry things. I always hide and lock my purse in the trunk, though.

This time we didn’t use sunscreen and I ended up getting quite a sunburn. It’s on my face, upper back, shoulders, arms, and chest. It just goes to show that sunscreen really works!

We charged the car while at the beach and now we’re heading for the fast charger at AAA where I almost got run over.

Galileo left another message while on the beach with another anxiety/depression assessment survey to fill out.

The spoof call block app I installed is totally worthless. One day I had 15 fucking calls, mostly in the state. No way to block unknowns either. You would think that they would have a much better way of dealing with this shit by now. One that’s simple to use and free of charge.

I signed up for Facebook Viewpoints where I can earn points for doing tasks like surveys. It was great till I stopped getting tasks. I’ll have to contact them and see if I can find out why.

Went to CVS a few days ago and to Home Depot for grass seed.

Got a new dusting kit I really like that should save us money by eliminating the need for pricey Swiffers.

Hooked up to the charger now and once we top off the car, it’s off to Burger King. He just got a notice saying that my dermatologist retired. Great. Now I gotta go someplace else for my follow-up.

The rude ass across the street took the motorcycle out a few days ago but now has overnight guests once again, keeping him off the damn thing. There are at least two adults visiting and one child. This is the third time he’s had overnight visitors like this. I don’t think I’ve ever had any neighbors in the past who had overnight guests three times in less than a few months. I swear it’s like mainstream people trying to live a mainstream life in an adult community.

This time a blonde woman with a little girl showed up. A skinny, dark-haired girl has also been with them for a few days but has no vehicle of her own. Tom saw her walking one of the dogs while Carrie walked the other. Looks like she knows the blonde visitor because of the way they hugged each other when she arrived. I saw her in the driveway the other day and thought it was Carrie at first and how she must have lost weight rather quickly.

Three more weeks or less and they should be gone. Yes! If they don’t come down till November rather than October, we’ll have 7 months without them.

Someone was using a reciprocating saw yesterday past Toni’s place. It wasn’t too annoying, though. Not like when Bob used his circular saw, and then the guy across the street.

Had these weird senseless dreams. It was a series of strange scenes. First I was walking on a small frozen pond. The ice had peaks and valleys and wasn’t flat. A split second later it wasn’t frozen and I was swimming in it but it wasn’t cold. It was pretty comfy.

Then a few guys headed my way and I decided to leave, not feeling comfortable with them. Next, I was sitting in a chair somewhere waiting for Tom when I realized I was horny. I pulled a pair of silk panties from a box, slipped them on, and proceeded to do myself. Suddenly, I realized people were milling about and I didn’t have the privacy I thought I had, so I closed my legs and that was that LOL.

I also dreamed we were looking to move and some people that came to look at the place took us for thousands. I don’t know how they managed to do that since they were the ones that were supposed to be paying us, but still. So I looked at Tom and said, “Are we looking at being stuck in an apartment?”

He kind of had a dubious expression on his face to suggest we might be, and I said, “Oh no, I refuse to do the apartment scene again!”