How does Tom do that? I mean, how does he know certain stuff? Is he psychic now? He said it’s just his opinion, but it seems more like a gut feeling. Like a vibe. He said that even though he came in me when I was mid-cycle, I’m not pregnant, but that I will be in September or October. OK, since he’s proven himself not to be a liar after all, if he says September or October, then September or October it is.

However, I guess Robin has a different story to tell. Robin came to me last night and said that just cuz Tom has his opinion doesn’t mean it’s right, but that things will still work out and that I don’t need to pray to God for a child, cuz it’s a done deal, anywhere from right now, till I think she said September.

Robin made a comment that I’d be gaining weight soon enough. After I relayed what Tom said, they told me that everyone had a right to their opinion, but to just wait and see who's wrong and who’s right. Guess that’s all I can do anyway, but right now, as far as I’m concerned, the pessimist in me just can’t see it. Not now, not later, not ever. However, Tom does seem to be 100% confident and sure about his opinion and he sure did prove me wrong about my belief that he’d never cum, so we’ll see.

Later…

Typical Andy! If there’s one thing about him that hasn’t changed over the years, it’s his pushiness. He’s such an opposite-doer. I let him know on his machine yesterday that till Tom’s dad’s gone, he’ll be sleeping on the couch for the most part by the phone in case ma calls. So I asked him to please not call unless it’s very important. What does he do? Goes and calls here and wakes Tom up just to let me know Gloria was on TV. Tom said it was no problem and not to worry, but I do worry. Cuz first of all, Tom needs all the sleep he can get whether or not God’s preparing him for something. And second of all, that was very rude and inconsiderate of Andy. So, I left Andy a message and went over once again, what the definition of important was and told him that if I was up at night, I’d call him.

Later...

I just talked to Minnie, who has been trying to get a hold of me. She moved to Greenfield and is keeping this second kid of hers, who she says she got from a rape, cuz it’s a girl.

Well, because Tom’s cumming now and due to the fact that there’s a chance of us having a kid, regardless of if it’s slim, I’m not as pissed at God. I still kind of am, though, as Minnie’s too young, not ready and I don’t think she deserves it like we do or has paid her dues for it or has wanted it for as long as we have. Too many people get things they either don’t want or don’t care about handed to them on a silver platter, while those who want what they’re getting have to wait years or they never get it.

I wonder what makes Tom so sure I’m not pregnant now. I asked him about it, but he said he couldn’t explain it. Maybe it just takes time for the body parts to learn what to do after so long. Maybe it’ll just take the egg and sperm time to get the message and get the hang of how to make a baby.

Later…

Andy just left a message saying he was sorry he woke Tom up. He said he had forgotten all about it until he called and felt bad about it.

OK. No prob.

Later…

I had an hour’s conversation with Andy. We just bullshitted about odds and ends till he had to get ready for work.