Tom woke up at the same time I did, feeling great and well-rested, so why he didn’t want sex, when there was plenty of time, beats me. I guess this worked out with good timing, though, cuz once again I’m not very horny. For about a week after my period, I’m not as horny.

Tomorrow we’re both gonna go on the Slim-Fast diet. If I haven’t lost any weight right before my folks get here, then about 3-4 days before they get here, I’ll liquidate myself like hell and see if I can at least have a quick, week or so, of being thin.

It’s hard to believe, that as of yesterday, I’ve known Tom for 4 years.

I’ve been trying to get a hold of Tammy to see how Bill is, but there’s no answer.

Tom thinks that the Aerobid was responsible for the weight gain as well as the moods. He said he thinks this cuz of how I’d try to lose weight while on it and couldn’t, yet after getting off of it, I started to drop. Yeah, but only for 5 minutes, then I went right back up to where I am now. It hangs on me and stays with me. Meaning, that I weigh a steady 108 when I wake up, when I go to bed, and no matter where I am in my cycle.

He knows. Tom knows where not gonna have a kid. I could tell by the way I was telling him that I’d be glad I’d be a week after my period when my parents get here and not right before it. His expression was as if to say, “Yeah, I know that.”

And why else would he say that as soon as we get caught up financially, he’s gonna claim 1, then 0 on his tax forms at the end of the year, so we won’t have to pay as much in taxes? For now, he’s claiming 3, so that we can have less taken out of his paycheck and more to live on. But he must certainly know that we won’t be having a kid, cuz that’d set us back financially. Having the kid may cost a fortune, but if I got pregnant now, that still costs enough money, cuz you’ve got doctor’s appointments and then things you have to buy for the baby. I know that his side of the family would’ve contributed some stuff, but we wouldn’t have gotten a damn thing from my side of the family. And we couldn’t have expected Tom’s family to buy everything. We would’ve still had to have bought a lot of stuff and spent tons of money.

I took down the Gloria pictures that were along one of the bedroom walls. I’ve had those pictures up in different places I lived in since 1989, so I thought it was time for a change. I cut/cropped the pictures to fit into one of our photo albums. I haven’t decided yet, what I’ll be doing with this now blank wall.