Just 10 days left! Teddy Bear, please come back before I leave.

The pictures arrived today.

Bunch just came on. Bunch is cool, but it’d sure be even cooler if she swapped with Teddy Bear! Teddy Bear might not even be here, though. Their days off vary. I asked her why she swapped with Teddy Bear the other night (of course, I referred to her as Johnson) and she said because the sergeant told her to.

Not that I’m complaining, but I wonder why.

It was great to finally see Tom yesterday! He got to meet Misery too, who was doing visitation. I talked the poor guy’s ears off, bouncing between my excitement over leaving and my fears of what lies ahead for me.

On my way out I noticed M’s entry door does have a keyhole. Then why do they always operate the door from the control station?

Vasquez worked today. She told me they canceled the coffee cart because they weren’t making enough money.

Weren’t making enough money?! How much more money does this jail need? It gets donated food, thousands of dollars in “rent,” thousands in commissary, and it doesn’t make enough money? Talk about greedy little shits! Fortunately, I only have 10 days left, and this will be one less thing to wake me up when I’m not already up.

I caught up on my sleep today. I was beat yesterday because Laticia was out first and that mouth woke me up. When the mouth was finally locked down, I couldn’t fall back asleep.

Tom ought to have made my dentist appointment by now. I hope he has because I have to get these things filled in. Every time I get ahead with my teeth or my weight, something sets me back. I just about had my cavity problem kicked, then the freeloaders had to go and fuck things up all over again for me.

Once again, though, I’m not 100% regretful over all this what with how much I’ve learned. It’s been quite an adventure! It’s also going to make life all the more special. Together, Tom and I will appreciate things all the more. And Teddy Bear? I wouldn’t trade meeting her for the world! The only thing I’d change is never being here in the first place. But I am here and I’ve been here and that fiery Palma will always be a hell of a memory to hold onto. So will Rosa and Mary.

Right now it’s looking like the only ones I’ll write to after I’ve been out a year besides Teddy Bear will be Rule, Palma and Pérez. Maybe Espi too, but I doubt Chambers.

I’m mentally analyzing Teddy Bear again. I love to think about her (in both intimate and non-intimate situations)! I keep wondering when she was onto me about my liking her. First I think she couldn’t have figured that out till I started kiting her, but the expression on her face when she took the first kite out of the trap suggests she knew then.

That sergeant is back. Gundy’s his name. Does this mean he shot Bunch again and Teddy Bear’s on her way in? That’d be awesome if that were the case, but somehow I doubt it is. I think he’s just breaking for Bunch.

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Yeah, he was just breaking for her. When Bunch returned, she let me out to make a quick call to Tom. I just wanted to let him know I love and miss him and apologize for being such an emotional basket case!

When Bunch let me out I said, “Thanks a bunch, Bunch,” and Bunch laughed, calling me smart-alecky.

While I was on the phone, Marla called out for me to get Bunch’s attention. Jamie and Myra got into it like I knew they would, and Myra and Marla wanted her out. I told Bunch not to put her with me or I’d kick her ass and she just smiled in amusement, though I was dead serious. She’s like another Melinda Brinkman – delusional, can’t get along with anyone, can’t shut up. She was moved up to 4.

This is the longest I’ve ever stayed put in this jail – 31 days.

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That was a good dinner for a change. Cheesy burritos with fresh salad and a donut. I ignored the boring potatoes.

It looks like the Mexican girl that was in 4 is back in 1.

I forgot to mention that Garcia worked last night, so I got to ask her why she came in here. She said this cell is very hard to see in, so she wanted to make sure everything was OK before she left.

That’s so rude. She came in last night, too. She should be more considerate and use the fucking flashlight. She went into the juvi’s cell too, which is identical to this one. I saw the creature that lives there too, as I was waiting for an escort yesterday. Through the tower, I saw it come up from the shower room. It looked to be exactly as I pictured – a scrawny Mexican.