March 1988

3/2/1988 Wed. 12:29 AM

I haven’t written for quite a while. A lot has happened, too. To start with, I’ve had a very bad case of the flu since Thursday. I can’t seem to shake it totally out of my system.

I’ve decided to go to La Baron Beauty School. Others have suggested I’d do well at it and I don’t really have anything else to do. I was supposed to meet with the financial aid people last Friday, but due to the flu, I had to postpone it.

Whether or not I feel well, I need to do laundry and go grocery shopping tomorrow. I hate to see Kevin but I’ve only seen him twice in a month and I plan to have as little to do with him as possible cuz I’ve never felt better. He is so determined to see me become a singer but I think he just wants something out of it, such as for me to be all lovey-dovey, an excuse to see me, and a pat on the back from my parents.

3/5/1988 Sat. 5:42 PM

Nellie moved today, and José asked me if he could store two suitcases in my place till tomorrow. Guess he’s not moving with her. I should steal the clothes from the suitcases. He stole from me.

I spoke to Mary today and asked her if she wanted to go down to Salem tomorrow with Nervioso and me. She can’t, which is too bad, cuz I really don’t feel like putting up with him all day.

I ran out of cigarettes, and to hell if I’ll spend any money on any more. I know I can quit, and for fuck’s sake, quit I will. It makes me feel miserable and burns my needed money. I know I have what it takes to quit without that fucking gum.

I’m at the Laundromat washing the big yellow bedspread I got from the Harley Hotel.

Ma sent me some beautiful pictures with a nice little letter. I wasn’t surprised by her closing statement. “Stay well and out of trouble.”

3/6/1988 Sun. 11:15 AM

Mary D called at 9 am and said she was at Dunkin’ Donuts and asked me if I wanted to come up. Both Nervioso and I did, and he got all nervous and never shut up.

We’re now on our way to Tammy’s.