I got up at 2:45 this afternoon (at 119) and took a couple more Benadryl to see if I could slam myself back down for a few more hours, but I just wouldn’t go under. Instead, all I ended up with was a dry mouth and a very groggy me. I laid there a few more hours, but then that got old and I got up. 

Tom went to bed at 8:00 and I’ll be getting him up at 2:00. Then we’ll go for a quick dip in the pool, then head to a casino on the Indian reservation.

Tom trimmed the hedges in back today and worked on the car. The car failed Emissions again.

My parents haven’t said anything about Lisa and Bill stopping by, so does this mean they haven’t and aren’t going to? I just wish my folks weren’t so blind when it comes to Bill. I wish they could see him for the violent whore of a scumbag he really is. Instead, all they see is his being Jewish. Oh yeah, that really counts now, doesn’t it?

The more I think about it, the more I realize just how much Andy loves serving food. Although he’s been through 50 jobs, you gotta really love being a waiter and doing the cleaning that’s involved in that to be doing it for over 15 years. Tom says he thinks he likes interacting with all the people. I think so. He hates people about as much as I do, but he’s lonely and desperate for any attention he can get, negative or not. I couldn’t imagine doing work that involved a lot of people no matter how lonely or desperate I was. I am just not a people person.

I asked Tom what he thinks is the reason the bitch next door’s not having the Lopezs watch the animal. He says that they don’t do it for free and that he doesn’t think they do daycare during the summers.

There’s something I wonder about Tammy. We all have things we can’t live without. I can’t live without my stereo. Tammy can’t live without a man. Well, my question is, had she not found Mark whom she knew a couple of years before kicking Bill out, would she have kicked him out? Like most people won’t quit an old job before finding a new one, it seems she wasn’t about to throw Bill out without having something steady going that she could transfer right into.

Later…

Fuck! Is my metabolism ever gonna speed up? I know I’m stuck today, but still, I gained 3 pounds just for eating one small TV dinner and a few graham crackers. Being stuck will keep a person from losing weight, but I guess any more weight loss is gonna have to be done in stages. Each stage will take a while. Just like in the past. For a while, I hung at 122-124, then 120-122, now 119-121.