We got Windows 98 yesterday and neither of us is too thrilled with it. The only thing it’s got that I like is how I can choose two different colors for my active and inactive title bars. I don’t like its start menus. Instead of popping up and down, they slide.

I’ve had a setback with the weight. What else is new, huh? I had gotten to 117-119, but now I’m just over 120. It’s my fault for slacking off and getting some munchies yesterday when we were waiting for Walmart to open. I feel teased again, too. I get this water pill, begin losing weight before my period, then get my period which was a light one, and then gain weight. Well, I’m the one who’s been saying for months now how I’m destined to remain heavy. I think I’ve known that deep down and that that dream didn’t really mean anything. Again, if I can stay around the low 120s, I can sit in my “rocking” position easily enough. Meanwhile, I’ll never be thin again. I’ve said it, I’ve known it, so…so be it. Also, I gotta treat food cravings like I treated the cigarette cravings and ignore them cuz they do go away with time. You kind of get used to a new diet after a while, but fortunately, I’m not getting too hungry too often. Not like I used to for a while there.

At Wal-Mart, we were hoping to get an extra, smaller aquarium so I could expand the mice’s setup, but they didn’t have any we wanted. I did get a really neat raft, though. I’ve always wanted one that was airless and that you didn’t need to worry about tearing. I don’t know for sure what type of material it’s made of. Maybe Styrofoam. It’s purple and yellow striped and not as comfortable as an air raft, but it’s still nice.

There was this object that neither of us could be sure of that Ma sent. I described it to her and asked her what it was, but she didn’t know what I was talking about. She asked if I could scan or draw it. Tom scanned it with the VCR, and we attached it to their email, so I’ll wait to see if she can tell me about it.

The weekend was cockless, so it was fine. Tom did see him parked in the street, though, last evening, as if he was taking or dropping off the kid. This morning, Caddy and cock came.