I woke up with a few bigger spots than I had yesterday, but now I’m back to nothing. That’s pretty weird. I thought I’d have a full flow for sure today.

You could say that today was a relaxing day for both of us. He mostly did computer work and that’s basically all I did, too.

I don’t know now if I’ll continue to do my writing only on the computer. When I’m not actually writing stuff in the books, there’s not much else to do and I have the perfect lifestyle for it. It’s not like I have a job or a kid.

We screwed earlier. I enjoyed it and got off, but he didn’t seem the least bit into it. I knew he was full of shit with this little idea of his and I really don’t think he wants to cum more often, as well as the fact that I doubt he’s able to at his age. Maybe if he lost some weight and were a bit more fit he could, but the question is, would he really want to?

We took Bunny outside and sat him down in the yard to be free to do whatever he wanted, but for the most part, he just sat there and picked at the grass. He had the most fun out there he ever did have, though.

My period is light, but now it’s officially a full flow (just had to make a bathroom run).

I’m just doing our stupid, waste-of-time agreement to please him, but after that, I’m throwing in the towel. If God’s not gonna do his work, I’m not gonna do it for him. Like I said, he either gives it to me for nothing like he does to more than most women, or that’s it. I’m not gonna be made to feel like I have to work for it and fight for it. And like I gotta prove myself worthy and deserving of it. A child isn’t supposed to be something you earn.

Got an address label catalog in the mail. I’ve ordered from them before. I still have plenty of labels left (3 different kinds: cats in boots, dogs in a car & palm trees), but I saw a couple of really nice sets I’m getting. A southwestern set and a Peanuts theme set. They’re cut-outs, too. Meaning, that the label is basically in the shapes of the designs.

Later...

I changed my mind and I’m going back to doing both written journals and computer version ones. What changed my mind? Well, mainly the fact that I type so damn fast, compared to writing, and if I weren’t writing, there wouldn’t be much else to do to fill my time. I don’t have a job or a kid, so I have the perfect lifestyle for it. Writing and singing are about the only things I can do consistently.

I’m still 108 pounds and am not bothering to try to lose weight now. Once again, that’s up to God, not me.