No racy heart in the shower. I knew that wasn’t right for my heart to go on a rampage just because I showered. It probably would a little bit if I took a very hot bath or got in a Jacuzzi, but not only was that not normal, I like my showers cooler at this time of year. 

The swallowing issues, eye and head pressure may not have been connected, though. Can’t say for sure. I’m still frustrated over the whole thing despite feeling better without the killer heart/anxiety issues. I’m going to miss having a metabolism. But I should’ve been TOLD and WARNED. My Gosh, how could my PCP not suspect the anxiety was connected to the levothyroxine? With all the complaints similar to mine? When I asked if there were any side effects she said, “No, it just may make your heart racy.” 

The correct answer would’ve been, “It may make your heart race like hell, give you the anxiety from hell, knock your hair out, and maybe give you a few other minor problems. It could get severe enough that you can’t stand to treat the disease and will therefore have to ask yourself, which is the lesser evil, the meds or the disease?” 

Like I said, I’ll treat the damn disease and take my metabolism as soon as there’s a way to do it that doesn’t leave me feeling absolutely miserable, but if it exists, I don’t know about it. I appreciate the doctor fixing my ingrown toenail and taking care of my female problems, but now I’ve got trust issues when it comes to doctors. I’ll talk to Tom some more when he gets up, but if he’s not overly concerned or worried over me not taking meds, then I won’t be either. So chances are I’ll be canceling appointments. 

Anyway, I took a nap for an hour and a half late at night, which is a good thing because I got up earlier than I wanted to. 

Day 3 and my shiny gold gel nails show not the slightest hint of chipping. 

Gonna need to really back off the high-calorie foods – sweets, pasta, pancakes and other rich foods and stick to meats, fruits and veggies. 

Later… 

Canceled my appointment with my endo doc online, giving a brief statement as to why. 

Gonna keep taking my cholesterol medication since not treating my thyroid is only going to raise it. Since I have no side effects from the simvastatin, why let my cholesterol levels get so high? 

I don’t understand, though, why Tom thinks the side effects of the levothyroxine are coming from my subconscious. If that were the case, wouldn’t I have had side effects from the start? At first I thought it was just the stress of accidentally ODing, but then I found many others said their own side effects took them a couple of months to catch up to them, too. Mine came a couple of months after she raised my dosage. 

In better news, Tom got a dollar raise!