Yesterday turned out to be anxiety-free, for the most part. I felt the most like my old self since this shit began on the 9th. 

I am determined as hell to have another anxiety-free day, even though it’s back to my thyroid and cholesterol meds today. In a few hours, it is, when my stomach’s had a chance to empty out. That’s when I’ll take my levothyroxine. I’ll take the other pill at the end of my day. I’m still going to chill pill it a half-hour after taking the levothyroxine for about a week or so until I can see that I’m ok and no harm has come to me. I chill-pilled as Tom was leaving for work yesterday and it didn’t knock me out or anything like that. 0.5 is a very low dose when it comes to lorazepam. 

When I take that pill Tom and I both will remind me that it can’t hurt me, it was only in my mind thanks to scaring the shit out of myself when I accidentally double-dosed, there’s no evil God out to get me, it’s a supplement and not a medication, just like he and a follower whose input I really appreciate said. She has reminded me of this fact as well as being more careful about names. Oh, I’ve always changed or dropped last names, but she got me to realize that if I’m Googled, certain people might know whom I’m talking about even without last names. While it may be true that people should think before wronging others if they don’t want it mentioned anywhere, I don’t want to deliberately offend people. I write to express my life, my feelings, and my experiences, after all. Not to piss people off. 

Going to Walmart in a few hours and I guess that’s it for now.