Took my meds at 5am and was hoping to be chill pill-free from here on out, but I felt a little restless on and off till 9am. Before that I went out on my bike but only made one round around the block, not wanting to get my heart going too much. First I had a levothyroxine block to get over, and now I’ve got an exercising block to get over. Elevating my heart reminds me of what happened and I always wonder if part of it is anxiety or all from working out. I’m just afraid of hitting insane heart rates like 161. 

According to a chart, however, it says that my max heart rate for my age is actually 175 and my target heart rate when working out can be up to 145. Well, I better get back into the swing of things because while diet makes me lose weight, exercising keeps it off. If I slack off too much I will go back to gaining. 

Tired of feeling anxious on and off I took a chill pill. I’m a little disappointed in myself, but at least I went longer this time. I just hope it really is masking anxiety and not side effects. No one else seems to think it could be side effects, so I gotta just trust them. 

If I can’t go all day tomorrow without the chill pill, I’ll at least try to go longer. Over the weekend when Tom’s here I would be really surprised – and dismayed – if I needed it. Like I said, if I end up going through this bottle, then I probably need something full-time. Still hoping I won’t, though. Tom doesn’t think I will, but we’ll see. 

Not really impressed with my new toe ring, but it’s better than nothing. 

I de-cluttered the bookcase by mostly weeding out many of the collectible Barbies. That way there’s less to have to dust.